iKnow...
I'm not a normal person.
But I just wish others could pick up on it.
I've been through a lot of shit.
But three facts about me...
1) I'm always AllU. I do not change myself for anyone. I'm not a horse that can be tamed. And I will always have a fire inside me that will ignite everything around me. That's why I'm single and focus on my kids..animals and work. But more people these days do not understand that at all ( for a comedic reference think of me as a New Jersey Italian). I sometimes run to my boss's office when the shit hits the fan. I was in the Navy as a Petty Officer and that is how we got shit done.
Unfortunately that is something that cannot be changed from my personality. I walk fast with a sense of purpose and diligence and direction.
2) I'm genuine...I don't get in bullshit. But I'll watch you burn after giving you guidance and you fail and save you after you feel the pain. I'm autistic and now I understand why my daughter is the way she is. If I was 25 (like myDaugther) I would beat the shit out of everyone that crosses me. She has kicked the shit out of me several times. I wondered why? How can you do that to people... especially your dad...but now I'm not wondering why she is the way she is..she is me in a skirt. I'm just not physical. I attack my boundaries with mental clarity and sending you to the door or the cubical.
3) and...most crippling...I care way too much about eVVerthing...this is something I cannot control. My therapist (without meds mind you because I'm not doing that shit and water down AllU) tells me to take breaks and think. But there is still always enough in me to still start a fire.
All you touch and all you see will be all you will ever be...it is my theme song...and if you are crossing my path. I will be there for you until I see you fail me.