#almost tmi

[petits--oiseaux]

My back was kiiilling me tonight so Eric gave me a back rub. He found THE PERFECT pressure point and was massaging it sooo fucking good. I legit may have cried and had a mini orgasm because it was so amazing. Honestly the best back rub of my life lol

[sybilhallward]

I was braless playing with my cat and she went straight to biting the nipple

[human-with-human-powers]

am i on a mental health break because i was recently sent to the psych ward? yes

but am i up late convinced that nobody i love will ever love me as much as i do them, and that this unreciprocated love is going to torture me as long as i live?

also yes

[zzzabrak]

(Mid make-out, I ask if it's alright for me to leave marks...)

Me: Marks?

T: Yes marks... and Engels.

Me:...

T:...

Me:...

Me: I'm leaving.

[pauldanofanblog]

[syaieya]

Well y'all, I'm taking a break from tumblr. I may not be putting it away for good, infact I'll prolly check in from time to time. Reasons are below, as well as some personal dealings. 

But, i just need less excuses to get on the computer when i'm not at work. 

Between this, watching stuff on youtube like gamegrumps, and just piddling away time playing stupid flash games/facebook games I'm killing upwards of 2 hours a night. And that's adding up.

This new office worker lifestyle of mine is even less active than when I was unemployed. I'm heavier than I've ever been, I'm spending too much time just sitting at a computer every day and my body feels it. I'm losing my fire, my flexibility, my confidence in myself. 

In my current state I don't feel good enough to go out and try to meet people, much less take up dating again. And that's not even throwing in my shattered trust.

I'm still very shakey from what my ex did to me. Though it's been over a year now, and I've even had blips where I've come this close to forgetting her name. Just the mention of that woman makes it all surge back. Individually, I could forgive. But as much as I tried she just threw everything away. Being cheated on, lied to, dumped, and then when all I asked for was to possibly remain in contact. Ignored. 

I've not tried to speak with her in months, over a half a year now, but just knowing that I have friends that would still associate with that. I just don't have good thoughts about any of it. 

I need to step out of these shadows I'm in and re establish myself. But I don't know where to start. I don't know where to go. And i don't want what I am on face value to define me. 

By day I'm an engineer for a predominately military contracted company. I drive a Mercedes Benz. And just by those things alone, I've already had people make assumptions about me. 

I could go on, but anything more may get to be more than I should say. But message me if you would like, link me things you want to show me. but for now, I'm out.  

[ragefulbeauty]

My Random 2 Bits For Today

I have a wicked awesome crush on Edward Norton.

I want to pierce my nipples, but haven't because I think my boobs are terribly ugly.

[caffeinateddev]

I feel like I'm currently an example of juxtaposition with this sports bra/lacy thong combo I'm currently sporting to bed.