#syaieya

[lorethecat]

syaieya replied to your post: My ex is apparently still creeping on ...

Sorry, I think it’s contagious or somethin.

It's actually a VERY similar situation, too. :/

[careless-seafoam]

syaieya replied to your photo “Woke up with anime hair.”

I say roll with it, that's pretty spectacular

Thanks! It is definitely one of my better bedhead days.

[bluewavelengths]

Check out this sweet shiny umbreon I got on wonder trade today

[space-cops]

A couple years ago I hit some black ice in my car and hit a guard rail on the interstate as the snow was starting to come in. The car was running but the heat was busted. I waited for hours until someone got stuck next to me. A cop came by to check on us but soon left with no help whatsoever. i was in that with my little sister for hours until my mom braved the weather in her little Mazda and saved us. My pride was hurt and i was shaken. So oh do I know how much that sucks.

oh my fucking god that cop should have been fired

as much as i cant stand cops the ones around here are actually pretty okay and are willing to help as much as possible

im so sorry that cop left you on your own like that. that's awful and if i'd been there i would have complained until they sent someone out again (and cried. i would have cried). its good that your mom came to help though. good parents are a blessing, esp if they can come to ur rescue 

i hope you never have to go through that again tho jfc im so sorry

[syaieya]

Well y'all, I'm taking a break from tumblr. I may not be putting it away for good, infact I'll prolly check in from time to time. Reasons are below, as well as some personal dealings. 

But, i just need less excuses to get on the computer when i'm not at work. 

Between this, watching stuff on youtube like gamegrumps, and just piddling away time playing stupid flash games/facebook games I'm killing upwards of 2 hours a night. And that's adding up.

This new office worker lifestyle of mine is even less active than when I was unemployed. I'm heavier than I've ever been, I'm spending too much time just sitting at a computer every day and my body feels it. I'm losing my fire, my flexibility, my confidence in myself. 

In my current state I don't feel good enough to go out and try to meet people, much less take up dating again. And that's not even throwing in my shattered trust.

I'm still very shakey from what my ex did to me. Though it's been over a year now, and I've even had blips where I've come this close to forgetting her name. Just the mention of that woman makes it all surge back. Individually, I could forgive. But as much as I tried she just threw everything away. Being cheated on, lied to, dumped, and then when all I asked for was to possibly remain in contact. Ignored. 

I've not tried to speak with her in months, over a half a year now, but just knowing that I have friends that would still associate with that. I just don't have good thoughts about any of it. 

I need to step out of these shadows I'm in and re establish myself. But I don't know where to start. I don't know where to go. And i don't want what I am on face value to define me. 

By day I'm an engineer for a predominately military contracted company. I drive a Mercedes Benz. And just by those things alone, I've already had people make assumptions about me. 

I could go on, but anything more may get to be more than I should say. But message me if you would like, link me things you want to show me. but for now, I'm out.  

[space-cops]

syaieya replied to your post: pbbbb my mother’s computer is stuck on infinite...

did you tell her that they’re no longer gonna support windows xp next year? good excuse as any to get her to upgrade.

yeah and that kinda got her thinking so im gonna mention it again tomorrow before i head off to work

im hoping she'll agree to it but at the same time her computer is so old she might as well just get a new one, you know?? 

[bluewavelengths]

Nitromethane and oleum

Nitromethane: What are your phobias?

I honestly don’t really have any, at least in the strictest definition where the fear is disproportional to the danger posed and one goes out of their way to avoid whatever it is they’re so afraid of. Like, I’ve had a thing with heights since I was a kid but I’ve gotten a lot better about it and the sight of a needle being pushed into skin (regardless of context) squicks me out. I also really don’t care for the scary clown stuff you see around this time of year (like not clowns in general just the stuff that’s specifically designed to be scary, and even then I’m not really scared of it I just find the way some of that stuff looks unnerving?)

Oleum: If one song were to describe your life, what song would it be?

I have absolutely no idea. I have a pretty narrow focus of music and there aren’t too many songs I know that I REALLY relate to.