#alrambles

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Want to write my own au were sevatar gets to be altani's dad because i need to feed my own delusions. I want his sinner red hands to suffer the incapability and unknown of using them for something that is not killing. I want to put him through having to take care of a little girl while knowing it is very likely the galaxy they built is prone to take lives like her. This unjust, terrifying world. I need

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I like my sketchy crunchy artstyle more, so you'll get more of my crusty ass sketches. There is so much time i can spend in a drawing without my brain hurting

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the only thing that is saving you from sevatar art spam is my wrist pain.

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I am mediocre at rendering at times but i hope you guys appreciate my +4 hour struggle against a canvas bettert than I do

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Me when somebody feeds me one (1) crumb of white scars every two decades.

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I have drawn astartes armour like, one, two times? And damn, that heresy era termie armour got hands (I do not, in fact, have hands; they are shaky and scared). My ass staring at the pieces of my references like "HuhH? What do you meAAN?"

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did a redraw of the vtm characters i designed for my chronicle less than a year ago, and man. seeing the improvement keeps me going.

to be fair, it was when i started to challenge myself while drawing them when i started learning a lot. different bodytypes, ethnicities, gender expression, hair types and styles, CLOTHING, JESUS CLOTHING, etc. I owe lot a lof my progress to just having to create a diverse cast of vampires for a story.

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writing my first primarch/oc giggling kicking my feet joy unbound i hold the power of the gods in my pen i cannot be contained