[ @alruenn continued from here ]
“Who could blame you for that?” Eyes closed, he rested against the crusted, chipped wall of the tavern bed-chamber, his arms folded in front of his chest. His head was lowered, and though he seemed to be at peace, there was rippling anger underneath his apparently calm mask. Anger that was, needless to say, not aimed at Siggy herself. She had done nothing to deserve it from him. She had been naught but honest.
He had stayed like this, the entire time that she had told him her story, listening intently, never judging, not even for a moment. That was one of the things that made him DIFFERENT, after all, from many of the other Salt Lords, Erron truly cared about his crew. He gave a damn about where they had come from, where they wished to go. What drove them. When you understand someone’s story, thought Erron, you understand who they are, and how they will act. It had started out as a lesson taught by Berrain to the both of them, to him and Hathlim, one night across a campfire on some Gods-forsaken beach, and in time it had become a philosophy to live by, a way to understand both foe and friend. It meant that he was a listener, when the time called to listen.
He had listened, and he had taken it all in. “You felt a need to escape, because the circumstances that you found yourself living in were impossible. They were contradictory to your survival, and so wishes, and daydreams, became a hideaway, a shield. Then when I came along, you found a way to turn FANTASY into REALITY.” What better method to flee was there, then that of a ship? “So you wore the mask of a man, to be a man amongst us. Did you reckon that I would fault you for that?”
Now, his eyes opened, and narrowed as he peered at her. “What difference does it make? You follow what is asked of you. You work hard, and don’t complain even in the roughest sea. You fight, when you are called to fight. The men like you.” There were plenty of actually male sailors who lacked a great deal of her wits and her work-ethic, so how could he deny a place among them all for her, when she had proved herself a hundred times to be one of them? He shrugged his shoulders, pushing off from the wall and clearing the distance between them, resting a hand against her shoulder. “On my ship, in my crew, you are Siggy, short for Sigurd. If you still wish to be.” @brahilhli
She had told her story. She had spared no detail, no matter how painful. Total honesty at last, not the partial truths she had given him thus far.
Her captain deserves that much.
And far more that that based upon his response.
She is not certain what she had expected. Derision? Disgust? Outrage? No. She cannot think that her captain might have reacted that way. Then why does his reaction take her so by surprise?
‘ If you tell anyone, you would be sending me back to him and he’d kill me, too. Whatever’s left that didn’t die that night… My child’s blood is on my hands. But mine? Mine would be on yours. ’
That is what she had said to him. Words not unlike a threat, words that were meant to guilt… Words spoken out of fear and desperation that she never would have said to him, that she should have known she would have no reason to say to him. To this man who had––inadvertently––saved her. Who had given her refuge and more than that. He had given her a place where she was accepted, even respected. He had given her a family, no matter how unconventional.
With that reminder of what a good man she serves––his easy acceptance, his offer to keep her secret––coupled with the shame of the words she had spoken to him and with the reassurance brought by the warmth of his hand upon her shoulder, she finds her eyes stinging once more as she looks at him.
“I… Captain… Forgive me, I… I should… I know you wouldn’t–– I don’t know why––”
Blinking the tears back––how she shames herself again with such weakness!––she takes a breath and tries to collect her thoughts and herself.
“I would like nothing better than for all to remain as it is now, but if you cannot… If you would choose another Quartermaster, if––…… I will do as you command.”
I trust you. I am sorry that I did not show it.







