#amanan

[qelizhus]

3 excerpts of a conversation between tyren cator & amanan 

transcript & tag list below the cut. beware spoilers, lol. 

clip one: 

“I will always be human,” Tyren cuts in, firm. “I will always be human, so long as I have my memories, and my love, and—”

“Yes, yes, you’re right. That’s my point. You have the physical form of a deity, now. You have all of our powers, our gifts. But you think with the mind of a human. And that is why you won’t understand why I did what I did. We—we have a different society than you did, Tyren. And you won’t—you won’t understand any of that, you won’t belong among the Palace City, if you don’t accept that you’ve died. If you—if you want any of this, you must assimilate.” 

“I don’t want to assimilate,” Tyren blurts, then stops. Quieter, they say, “But you didn’t assimilate. Did you? You didn’t.” 

clip two: 

“Isn’t relevant? You’ve taken me away from the place you want me to assimilate into... for what? Finding a foreign god? A deity that doesn’t even have power over his own subjects, nor any influence on the world I come from?” 

“He is not a foreign god, Tyren, he’s—”

“Your friend,” Tyren says, voice flat. Unimpressed. 

“He was once my friend, yes.” 

“And now?” 

clip three: 

Amanan laughs and leans forward. In a playful, conspiring tone, they say, “Because I’m the only one who would listen to him. Everyone else—everyone else we grew up with, us founders—has a... grudge, of sorts, against the Spirit Lord. All for different reasons, of course.”

“And you don’t?” 

They hum, tilting their face to face the sky. “I don’t think I could hold a grudge even if I wanted to.” 

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“That’s a lie!” a voice sings out from behind her—it is Amanan, appearing out of nowhere. “You know that I’m the only real one that enters and leaves this place. Except you and our missing ‘god’, of course.” They say the last sentence with a derisive snort.

Austicera laughs, light and bright, and pushes herself off the couch. She wobbles a bit when standing up, but doesn’t fall to the floor. “Is it?” she says, a smile playing on her lips. Her skin flickers white before fading back into translucency, but her hair turns a silver-blonde colour. She flips it over her shoulder—arrogantly so, if Tyren may add. 

Amanan lifts their head in a way that would indicate rolling their eyes, but doesn’t say anything. Lao appears from behind them, arms folded across his chest. He looks… angrier than usual, Tyren muses. 

“So?” he asks. 

Austicera shrugs. “I was just saying that Carena needs a visit to the Holding Well. She’s been getting… well, you know her, being your mother and all.” 

Lao narrows his eyes. “She’s your mother, too,” he says. 

“In name only.” 

He rolls his eyes—visibly, this time. “The concept of family is made-up and stolen from Aeon,” he says. “None of that exists—if anything, our mother and father is the Holding Well and the Holding Well alone. Us original deities, anyway.” 

“Not you, though,” Austicera says lightly, almost as if verbally poking Lao. “Not you and Myrau.” 

[qelizhus]

NaNo wc: 33 154 / 50 000

tfw ur just tired of writing ur wip. sometimes u just gotta grind out nonsensical words, amiright

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NaNo wc: 26 257/50 000

did absolutely no homework today, despite my very busy next week, but at least i wrote some. made up for the day i wrote absolutely nothing on (the 13th), so i’m just over the site’s “path to success”. 

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NaNo wc (as of writing this post, as usual): 18 387/50 000

comments for today:

lol guess who decided to introduce a character, creating an important role, that implies a subplot that wasn’t supposed to exist

lol watch me decide that the get-around to repeated names for deities is that simply most of them don’t have names. why? because they forget everything when they die so they just haven’t decided on a name that’s been taken. either that, or there’s like a million carenas because they all name themselves after the deity that took care of them the first day. carena #54301 >>> carena #1

lol i only wrote this much today bc i’m procrastinating doing my physics & chem hw. i have 2 tests coming up. wish me luck