#amber post

[ace-and-aro-support-group]

I have a curious question for all of you...

Based on a previous Ask and thinking about how I came across ‘discovering’ my identity, and how if I hadn’t been on Tumblr that very moment I might still not know;

How did you ‘discover’ your identity?  I don’t mean necessarily realizing how you felt, but coming across the actual term, like Asexual or Aromantic, and having that moment of clarity like “...oh... oh my gosh... this is me.” or “this might be me”

~Amber 

ending this with a random question mark so ‘answer’ is enabled?

[amberbreathes]

thursday april 23, 2015

i’ve been working out semi consistently for the past two weeks, including running and HIIT. i did a jillian michael’s workout today and it was moderately easy but halfway through i just could not finish. i didn’t want to workout to begin with but i got up and i forced myself to put on workout clothes and do it. i did about 25 minutes of it before i just mentally wasn’t in it anymore. i wonder what the science is behind my lack of motivation. i wonder if it’s because i’m heavier now, if it’s because i’m 3 pounds over a mark i’ve never crossed before and if it’s just the extra weight making it harder. i haven’t felt in touch with my body in almost a year and a half and that’s the goal i’m shooting for now. it’s not even about losing weight; it’s more so about me getting back in touch with my body, knowing how my feet move and how my abdomen moves because that’s like an anchor for me. i probably will go on a run later tonight, just for right now, i’m not feeling it. i’m trying not to see this as a failure, but right now it kind of feels like it. 

[amberbreathes]

tuesday april 14, 2015

officially started back up today. i didn’t really push myself as hard as i could have but i did that on purpose because i feel like i’m re-learning my body again. i actually had a lot of fun though and i felt like i got a lot accomplished. i did this workout by backonpointe.

[llamaxajol]

Ja Amber oświadczam całemu światu, że kocham Geumhee, Sungjae i Yerim oraz jestem haardym Inspiritem! ♥

[amber-ia]

With a match in hand, the healer hums a familiar rap tune to herself though she can't for the life of her remember the name, preparing to scratch it into flames and toss it into a trashcan she'd brought outside a safe distance away from the dormitories. She had some shit she wanted to burn, and she'd waited a fucking long time to bring herself to grow big enough balls to do it. On the floor beside her was an array of small things like a stuffed moose and a necklace. Yep. Those were going to be ash by the time she was done.