I am not allowed to surf facebook for friends of mine that I use to hang out with that I no longer speak too
because there all 10 steps ahead of me
I hate this feeling that settles in my chest and makes it hard for me to breathe. This realization that I didn't jump on the ball like they did. That my successes have seemed to turn to failures
I see marriages, babies, bigger degrees and careers.
I see myself slacking, divorced, and disabled.
I fail at everything I feel like whenever I see how happy and successful my old friends are it's like there all over there laughing. I don't know if I'll ever get over that feeling of always being 20 steps behind the crowd.