#amidepressed?

[goodfvckingvibes]

I really do enjoy being single. I don’t have to answer to anyone, don’t have to tell anyone what I’m doing or who I’m with. Don’t have to explain anything. But I’m at a point where I’m sick of being lonely. I do miss having someone to come home to. Someone to lay in bed and talk about our days with. I miss having someone who’s interested in me and wants to see me and love me. I’m so fucking exhausted, I feel like I don’t know who I am sometimes. Some days, like today, I feel like I’m going crazy. I hate being bored. I hate sitting around wasting time doing nothing. I wish I had one friend who actually would take time to hang. Everyone’s in relationships and has lives. Then there’s me, I wouldn’t wanna hang with me either 🤗 I don’t know what will ever make me ok again. I feel like I’m meant to never find someone and it’s the worst feeling in the world. UGH

[dolcezza11-blog]

Some days I feel absolutely amazing. I’m vibrant and happy, I’m making people smile and feeling good about myself.

Most days though, I just wanna curl into a tight ball, and never come out of it. I just want to lay there and cry my eyes out until I fall into a restless sleep that I never wake up from.

[famoustimemachinequeen]

From my drunk diaries:

I love the silence where there is no sound except the sound of my mind going crazy. I might be paranoid. I can feel each and every stress eating a part of my brain away. Am not depressed but there are things which bothers me like crazy. Why do I have to see the people who I don’t want to see, why do I have to see the screen to see what I am writing if it’s right or not. Some days I don’t want to see his or her face. I feel it’s killing me from inside. I want to go where my brain takes me right now. do i want to sleep? Do I want to close my eyes? why do I have to be right wen I don’t want to be right. I don’t want to be right all the time. I want to be alone whenever I want. I like sleeping while working why the fuck can I not sleep when I have to sleep can someone talk to me about this. Why can’t I do the things I want to do. Sometimes I don’t want to listen to any body.