Why is she apologizing?
I feel like these two quotes from Amity’s diary are severely overlooked and give a lot of insight into her thoughts/home life/insecurities, so I’m gunna talk about it. “called my teacher mom again”
I’ve seen this brushed off as “every kid does that” but Amity is 13 or 14 here, this isn’t a little kid slipping up. Kids call their teachers mom/dad if they feel the same safety/bond they do with their parent. Amity’s connection with her mom is strained and abusive. She feels like she needs to constantly impress her mom or risk her disappointment/punishment. Amity excels in school. Her teachers love her, and expect her to be the best in class and she is. She is praised and appreciated, and isn’t afraid of their disappointment. In some ways her teachers are more parents to her than her actual ones, so it makes sense for her to slip up and call her teacher mom. Multiple times might I add. I feel like this adds a lot to the emotions she was feeling in “I was a teenage abomination” Willow and Luz didn’t just take away her pride, they took away her emotional security. “sorry I haven’t written for a while, wait, why am I apologizing?” Amity is so used to being sorry that she apologizes to her diary. This tells me two things. First that she is very attached to this diary, it’s important to her. She thinks of it almost like a friend, a connection. I have spoken before about her showing affection by being vulnerable, before Luz, her diary is the only thing in the world she can be vulnerable to. It’s more than just a book. Second she says sorry a lot. She feels guilty a lot. She is put under loads of pressure and she doesn’t feel adequate. If she fails in the smallest thing, even something she’s choosing to do for herself in her free time she feels guilty. She expects perfection in everything she does because that’s what her parents expect of her. I do appreciate that she realizes that is an unhealthy way to think. This girl is amazing at self reflecting and changing when she sees something from a new perspective, but it doesn’t change that the instinct to feel guilty runs really deep. TLDR I just really appreciate the subtle character development in the owl house. We’re only in season one (and not even done) and I feel like I could pick this show apart for weeks. I WISH my writing was this good, damn.