Everything is really difficult right now. Actually, since my second big knee injury. Challenging comeback season with a lot of struggles and pain. Early season finish because of my mental health. Then I got covid, couldn't do anything for weeks. I started moving a little more, had medical check up last week, found out I have pneumonia, which explains why I had heavy breathing in the past days. Then the biggest issue is that I don't have a coach anymore. I've been thinking so much. About everything. Talked to federation and they very really really supportive which felt good at least. We are working on the solution. I was 🤏this close to ending it all tho. But it's not good to rush big decisions. I need to take my time. Let things calm down first.