I'm returning to this blog. I feel like it kept me somewhat accountable before, even though I felt like a complete failure the majority of the time.
A lot has happened since I was last here. I had a baby and with that I have gained a shit ton of weight. I couldn't (and still can't) stop eating. It was ridiculous. Now I am breastfeeding and feel like I'm starving all the damn time and just want to stuff my face every minute. I've been trying to make healthier choices like stuffing my face with cucumbers instead of candy, but I literally haven't lost any weight. Here I thought breastfeeding would help me lose weight, but I'm back to the weight I was WHILE I was pregnant! It honestly makes me feel worthless and disgusting. I'm sure she lying, but my mother-in-law told me that she weighs less than me! And she's fat! I thought I was fat before, but now I'm literally obese, you guys. My bmi is 35! 😱😱💀I really do hate myself. I need your help.
Dieting and breastfeeding is not recommended, but I have to have a minimum of 1800 calories a day. I'll lose a little bit of weight if I can just stick to that. If anyone has any tips, tricks, or a magic fucking wand please help me! Maybe we can be buddies? Idfk I'm pretty desperate now.
Prost new skinny beginnings.
CW: 224 BMI: 35.1 | GW1: 200 | UGW: 115 UBMI: 18.0