So…I have no idea if you’ll ever read this, but, I think I need to do this anyway. Perhaps one day, you’ll go back looking, and you’ll find this. Perhaps not. That’s entirely up to you. Also, I’m not going to change my login info, so if you want to erase this, then feel free. This is yours.
I want you to know, I don’t hate you, I don’t feel anything negative towards you. You gave me so many happy memories, and I cherish each and every one of them. I will remember you for all the good you did in my life. I’m not going to throw out anything, not erase the good you did. I…honestly love you. And I want you to have a good life, to be happy. I wanted to be your friend, to give you good gifts. I want to give everything to you. I hope you don’t hate me, for being a guy who loved too much, too unwisely. I hope that one day we will see each other and be able to stand as friends, as equals. I’m going to keep the same email if you want to contact me, and well, I’ll always have the same facebook, even though im practically dead there
…Damn…It hurt a lot, to lose you…to have you run away, when all I wanted to do was…to love you. Being honest…I miss you, so much. You were the first person to believe in me, and I…I believe in you. I pray that you find your happiness. I pray that you find the things you’re looking for. And I’ll keep praying every year. I know that one day you will wake up, and the world will fall at your feet when you realize how much strength you really have and begin to wield it. I wish you nothing but the best. No resentment resides in my chest. How could it? After evrything, you are still nothing less than incredible in my eyes.
I hope you had a good life so far, that you kept fighting, regardless of the demons that try and drag you down. I hope that you kept shutting the door on the darknesses of your past. I hope you chased your dreams, and found them, that you set your goal to become bathed in light and settled for nothing less.
This is my last time on tumblr. I’m leaving this post as a monument on the very top of everything. I built a pretty little edifice, and I feel this is a good last step down this road. I’ve said all I can to you. Well…maybe I can say one last thing…
i got a tag dedicated to it bc idk how to describe in words lol
9:Dream home?
under the ocean
10:OTP?
haha
11:Favorite band/music genre?
im ngl jpop/jrock and video game music stuff
12:Favorite songs?
/shrug i have a lot soo
13:Do you have a favorite book? If so, what book?
u kno what i forget but imma put avalon the web of magic bc thAT SHIT WAS MY JAM IN MIDDLE SCHOOL
14:Favorite food?
steak
15:Favorite TV show?
/shrug
16:Favorite character?
haurchefant and like literally the whole cast of undertale
17:Favorite animal(s)?
foxes, dogs, cats, otters
18:Favorite color?
blue greens pinks blues and reds aha
19:Favorite beverage?
apple juice
20:Favorite holiday?
christmas bc its cold and cozy
21:Relationship status?
single
22:Last text you've sent?
to gabby
23:Last text you've received?
frm gabby24:Last person you told you loved?
my dad
25:Last time you felt jealous, and why?
yesterday bc I WAS UPSET FOR NO DAMN REASON, but i understood it was stupid so i let it go
26:Are you insecure about anything?
a lot tbh
27:Where do you want to be right now?
by the ocean
28:What are some habits of yours?
bouncing my leg
29:Three turn ons?
food, water, atmosphere
30:Three turn offs?
no food, no water, no atmosphere
31:Do you have kik, skype, or any other social media?
i have skype, kik, twitter, fb, and snapchat (dont ask for kik fb or snap unless i know u well thnx)
32:Pet peeves?
ppl being rude for no reason, feeling rushed (there are more but this is all i can think of rn)
33:What're you wearing?
clothes ( im being vauge on purpose)
34:Career goals?
tbh idk bc im still deciding on whether to be a computer programmer or a concept artist ashd
35:Are you a student?
yes
36:What country do you live in?
U.S.A
37:Do you have any pets?
yes, a mixed chihuahua named zero
38:Tattoos you have/want?
nah
39:Piercings you have/want?
have ear piercings, dont use them
40:Morning or night?
i like both but probably night
41:Guilty pleasure band?
/shrug
42:Guilty pleasure song?
/shrug
43:Top 5 favorite memes?
OH BOY HERE WE GO
1. Gabe the Dog
2. Gabe the Dog
3. Gabe the Dog
4. Gabe the Dog
5. and Gabe the Dog
44:One band you don't get the hype for?
literally any on this site bc i listen to the same thing over and over minus vid game music
45:One band you wish more people knew about?
/shrug
46:Do you practice any religion?
nah
47:Do you believe in any form of a God?
sorta
48:What do you think happens after we die?
a second chance maybe idk
49:Have you ever done alcohol or drugs?
uh well no, my experiences dont count since the stuff was offered by my dad and i rlly didnt want to
50:What's the worst thing that's ever happened to you?
tbh idk maybe the whole drama thing in hs
51:What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?
my child zero came home with us
52:Have you ever had a near death experience?
nah
53:Is there someone you can tell anything to?
yes
54:What's the most amount of notes you've ever gotten on a post, and what was the post?
p 1000+ bc it was a game grumps gif set back in the day
55:Are you right or left handed?
right handed
56:Would you be in a relationship (platonic or otherwise) with the last person you texted? If it's a family member, the last person you aren't related to.
no
57:Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
not rlly comf answering this in public i guess ( but u def are one of those persons son lol)
58:Would you want to change anything about yourself?
my hair color mostly
59:What's the first thing you notice when meeting someone?
hair, face, eyes, ect
60:Have you ever been hurt by someone you trusted? Who?
yes very many but my ex best friend and an ex boyfriend ( they were in cahoots )
61:Have you ever hurt yourself?
if you mean self harm, no
62:Do you believe in an afterlife?
i guess
63:Do you believe in ghosts?
no only bc they scare me so u kno
64:What should you be doing right now?
my inktober piece/hw
65:Are you pissed at anyone right now?
nah
66:Do you believe everyone has a soulmate, platonic or otherwise?
idk maybe
67:When is the last time you were scared to tell the truth?
not recently
68:When is the last time you screwed up something important?
recently
69:Is there anyone you were close with and are not anymore?
my ex best friend
70:What's the last promise you made?
i dont remember
71:What's your outlook on life?
positive ish
72:Have you ever loved someone who didn't return your feelings?
yes
73:If you could change your eye color, what would it be?
a nice cool color like green or something
74:Are you dating the last person you talked to?
nah
75:Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
nah
76:Do you think someone has feelings for you?
u kno what probably but my oblivious ass can never tell
77:Has anyone ever told you they never wanted to lose you?
yes
78:Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
yes
79:Have you ever felt replaced?
yes
80:Last person you cried in front of?
my dad’s gf only bc she entered my room when i was havin a small breakdown
81:If your ex asked to date you again, would you?
uh maybe, he did kinda disappear so its leaning towards no
82:If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?
my theme song
83:Would you ever be in a long distance relationship?
i have been in one before, but considering how i am now, i need physical comfort so p not ( but idk maybe)
84:What can make you upset easily?
tbh chewing with mouth open
85:Do you have a good relationship with your father?
i like to think so
86:Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
i like to think so, but its probably rocky
87:Do you have a good relationship with your siblings?
eh, kinda
88:Have you ever been hurt physically or mentally by a family member?
yes
89:Are your parents divorced?
yes
90:What do/did people say about you in school?
idk i didnt care about it
91:What do/did you say about people in school?
pfft
92:Is any mental or physical illness hindering your life?
probably my anxiety
93:Have you ever had to end a friendship or relationship? Why?
uh yea, bc they became just as bad as my ex and backstabbed me at my mist vulnerable :^)
94:Are there things you wanted in your childhood but didn't get?
A GAMECUBE
95:Have you ever kept a journal?
*shudders*
96:Do you believe that birthmarks are scars from past lives?
its cool to think abt but idk
97:If so, do you believe there is a story behind your birthmarks?
