#analgasm

[cock-suckerasses]

analgasm

[beccasissy69]

I come to you today a chastened sissy. Today’s task was another attempt at an analgasm. I felt pretty confident about this, I checked with Goddess that what I’d been feeling before I stopped my last attempt was a sign I was close and she said it was. She also said it shouldn’t take more than an hour, but I thought I knew what I was doing now and I’d be able to get there quicker and then just take the final few steps to completion.

Today’s videos were to be shemales getting fucked, which I also thought worked in my favour.

Tonight, Goddess confirmed my task but also told me that if I hadn’t succeeded after an hour, it had a second part to it.

I got dressed and played some music to get in the mood and then I got started. This might sound weird considering what I cover on this blog, but I don’t want to go into too much detail. So let’s just say that nature made it clear that tonight wasn’t an anal night for me :( 

I had a couple of moments where it was going well but after about 40 minutes it was clear that I wouldn’t be able to complete the first task. This meant I had to unlock (I said I wouldn’t be happy if it happened) and a day short of two weeks! I was to release, but I didn’t think I deserved to enjoy it too much, so I went onto Goddess’s playlist for her trainees when they are allowed to release and watched a video where i was called a loser for the duration. The release was bittersweet, enjoyable but tinged with disappointment. I’ll cover what else I had to do in a future post when it comes into play.

[beccasissy69]

My kingdom for an analgasm

So close! Today’s training was to get dressed and dolled up, watch anal creampie compilations and work on my analgasms.

The hot and cold lube actually had an effect and the new toy was wonderful (it’s not about the toy, but smaller, thinner and with a handle were all pluses).

I started slowly and sensually, as instructed. I was on my side and I could feel that I had more control from the start. I built up to it and it felt like I was getting somewhere, but whenever I was close I would pause, plenty of precum was generated, but I couldn’t seem to get past a certain point.

I tried a couple of other positions but they were a bit awkward, until I tried all fours (inspired by the video I was watching) and it immediately felt more intense. 

I got close and then I backed off, it had been almost two hours and I was starting to feel really tired but I wanted one last attempt, so I started again. I was really pumping it quickly and I just carried on when I felt like I should pause. I think I had a small analgasm right at the end, the pressure build up got a lot stronger and then it eased off and there was a small pool of cum on my mat. Honestly, I was so shattered at the end of it that I’m not quite sure what to think. 

Analgasm or not, today was really useful. I used Goddess’s tips and I think I’ve got a firm grasp on the sensations and feelings so (fingers crossed) next time I can get completely over the line and remove any doubt about what happened.

[beccasissy69]

Daddy...

I can honestly say today was something else and I’m not sure I can fully put it into words. Goddess told me to watch a specific video and fuck myself for the duration. This was part of my efforts towards having an analgasm.

I was to get fully dressed and dolled up, because if I did cum it had to be as a girl, and then get to work. Goddess said it was to be a slow, sensual fuck with long strokes and it mostly was (sorry, sometimes a gal just gets carried away ;) ).

The video was almost an hour and a half long, so I switched positions a few times to stop cramping. I didn’t achieve an analgasm but I got really close (I think) on 2 or 3 occasions. What really got to me, especially after I’d finished was just how much I was identifying with the females in the video. The men, with their large erect cocks seemed almost like alien creatures and the natural place for the cocks was my pussy or mouth, which was obvious because my pussy was filled with a cock the entire time and my mouth for a lot of it too.

Reading that back, it sounds unbelievable but I kept moaning ‘fuck me harder daddy’ and ‘fill me up daddy’ and begging for cum like the girls on screen and it was like I just became one of them.

It was an amazing thing to go through and I assume this is what it feels like to be genuinely mind fucked. I’ve been training with Goddess for 3 weeks and I’ve had 3 mind blowing experiences in that time. I’ve only just realized that today I passed my previous longest time in chastity (8 days) and unlocking just seems irrelevant, if Goddess said I could I’d probably try and talk her out of it.