#anapology

[howlingcommando98-blog]

An Apology.

*meek wave* Hi guys, I know that it has been so so so long since this account was even active and I feel as though I owe you guys a major apology and a little bit of explanation.

The time between now and my last posts has been extremely difficult for me. I don’t want to go into specifics but I want you to know that I really really did not want to stop writing for all my wonderful followers. But sometimes life just gets in the way and throws things at you that require all of your time, attention and investment - things that really break you down and make it hard for you to really invest time in anything you enjoy.

I took a very long break from writing all together, it took up so much time and I just couldn’t seem to find any inspiration and everything I did end up writing was a bit meh - I didn’t want to write anything half assed or mediocre for you guys!

Over time things have calmed down, my life is a lot less chaotic - with fewer life altering bombshells being dropped - and despite some set backs I feel I’ve grown stronger for it and am feeling much more optimistic about everything. And, while I’ve been feeling better for a little while now, I didn’t want to jump into writing anything - be it on tumblr or any other platform - until I knew I could fully commit and carry on with stories - so as not to leave loyal followers hanging once again.

To make sure I was up for it I wrote a story - intending it to be a short and simple fanfic that no one would ever read - something to get me back in the swing of things! It turned into a very very long story that I’m still writing and decided to actually share on fanfiction.net. And, while updates aren’t as regular as I would like - life is still busy, as you all know -there are still updates!

I loved every single part of running this blog; the writing, the ideas and inspiration you guys gave me and even just some of the lovely lovely messages that you left me - and continued to leave me after I left! Reading those messages always really picked me up and I want to really thank you guys for that. I never intended on leaving you guys for so long and I know that some of you have been genuinely worried about me - so this is partly a message to reassure you all that I’m okay!

I feel like I’ve really let you all down and for that I feel absolutely terrible! I would be honoured if you would allow me to start writing for you again but I can understand if that’s not the case.

Whatever happens from now I want you all to know that I love you all and I am so very sorry for leaving you all so suddenly.

Love, HC98

[l-used-to-be-a-dreamer]

Ugly Words

In a moment of thoughtless madness,

I wrote ugly words,

Twisted into lies.

  They were born in the fiery depths of my heart,

Where logic and reason,

Give way to pain and anger.

  They stole through me and I turned them into sentences,

Without even processing what they meant,

Just lashing out, not caring about the specifics.

  But they hurt you.

You whom I love,

Whom I care for.

  You for whom I want nothing more than happiness,

You who I have already injured many times before,

You who I never meant to burn.

  And yet, in thoughtless madness,

The words broke free,

And once your eyes had read them,

They were memories I couldn’t wipe away.

  Just please, know this, my darling:

I never meant those words to be seen,

By you, nor any other.

  I put them where I did with no intention,

Except to get them out my body,

I didn’t think, that was my main mistake,

For which I’m so, so very sorry.

[joyful-death]

Blur

I, as of now, officially regret and apologize for any negative comments I have made towards Blur. This is a good band

[ryankitson-underdog-blog]

An Apology ✗ Talia & Ryan

Ryan caught the football with a grunt, tossing it over to someone on his team without hesitation. He and a small group of five other guys had thrown together a casual game of football, and his team was losing by an impressive amount. Ryan watched a guy from his team toss it back in his direction, making sure he had a clear path to the end-zone (between two oak trees). He was so sure he would make a touchdown, he started running backwards without realizing someone was running at him from behind. Before he had the chance to spin around, he was on the ground and the ball was in someone else's hand. 

Well, it was. Until it went flying in the total wrong direction and went straight for a petite blonde girl that Ryan immediately recognized. "Talia, heads up!" He helplessly raised his arm from the ground with a grimace as he waited for the inevitable to happen.