I’m typing this update from my rest point on the Ridgeline trail on my first solo hike in more than 10 years. Absolutely impulsive decision. I couldn’t sleep so I left at 5:30, picked a random trail I have never donewithin 30 minutes of my house and drove here. Started hiking in heavy fog and pretty much darkness. It was me and an owl. When the fog and the darkness lifted the squirrels came out and a few birds. It’s unseasonably warm around Charlotte this week. I’m so glad I did this. It’s been so good for me. 
I’m not brave/dumb/seasoned enough to go off the trails yet. I think this year I would like to hike 100 documented miles. This park offers primitive camping. With a goal to try backpacking/camping maybe in the fall. But for sure by summer 27. There are some girls who hike groups around here and I need to get in on those.  my kids need me less and less every day. Trying to find ways to fill this time with healthy things. Things that make me happy to be alive. And being in the woods is for sure one of those.
I also keep looking at real estate in the mountains. For what our house is worth on the lake I’ll be perfectly fine with some little mountain house paid off. No matter what happens between us. So that gives me a measure of peace. I just continue to live my life. Continue to do things that make me happy, but don’t disrespect my marriage or me personally.
I finally get to see my surgeon on New Year’s Eve for my post surgery appointment. I cannot wait to get this surgical tape off. I do not hate these tiny little titties. Learned finally to love this natural body. And Encouraging that in every woman I meet.













