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[lasthopeoptions]

One day I'll draw characters really good and elodin will be my masterpiece

[cheapcookiez]

A broken cookiez (｡•́︿•̀｡)

and what if it was today?

Don’t worry, i’m physically fine.

( also, if you don’t want to read, i won’t force you. )∑(;°Д°)

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i’m crestfallen and completely exhausted.  (｡•́A•̀｡)

You need to know that i genuinely hate talking about myself or my life on social networks.it’s none of your business but today ,i can’t hide it anymore. i reached an high level of sadness/tiredness .i’m also angry and artistically not satisfied. It’s clearly not an artblock or a depression. i kno’ how to handle the first one very well and the second would be childish towards the situation.

However, there is the problem: I am naturally an hyperactive person.I love doing so many things at the same time. However, i’ve been drawin’ almost only youtubers related stuff for the past 2 years . it’s not possible anymore.

1 /2 years ago,when i joined this art community,i had time to waste. Through the months, i’ve been a lot attached to Tumblr and all of you. I decided to impose myself an healthy and creative schedule.Something that could  push me to draw instead of being a lazy couch potato. Thanks to that,I’ve been extremely productive ( popularity or not,i was not expecting anything.i genuinely had fun . ) 

However, i almost lost this way of thinking. 

For the past months,i’ve been drawing for you and only for you. Since that,my life was conducted by the regularity of my posts and not by my creativity .

Who cares about eating,sleeping or working while i could draw for tons of people who claims for some doodles.  Few minutes per day ? i could give it to you. 

Months passing and these doodles became real artworks and these artworks became game concepts and now..you know the situation. i’m making a youtubers related game with an entire team. So,what was i expecting? i could handle my schedule, school+personal life and everybody would be happy? i’m not naive, i knew it was impossible buuuut  i love challenges , i love being extremely active. So where was my limit? i could finally find it .Finally. A real challenge.Something that my school was not giving to me . ( i hate competitions ,but i love personal challenges.Accumulating work and work under pressure is something i personally like.revealing your potiental through the small amount of time you get. That’s extremely difficult and challenging .)

I just want to make all of you happy and i won’t regret it. But today,the situation is different, it’s ruining my creativity and i have other IRL projects to manage. 

Right now. I need a break.

i need to draw less for you and more for me. I’ve been imposing to myself everyday new things and new challenges. At the end, the pressure was too high. 

i will now  concentrate my trashy mind on few things: My personal projects/school and S&P.  Of course, i won’t stop drawing youtubers. I love them way too much and this project is too important for me and the team.

From now,daily doodles/artworks will be COMPLETELY optional. i’m tired of this schedule. Maybe you’ll see 1 doodle per week or 5 in a row?! who knows.

I love practicing so much. I can’t believe i’ve been standing still on my old art skills  for so long.i’m a real shame, a real trash . i should not even call myself an artist. my art style have not evolve for almost one year. i hate me .oh boi.i hate myself so much.

I hope you’ll understand my choice. I need to practice and create again.

Never fear the unknow. look at me ,if i can do it, you can do it as well. you have nothing to lose. 

what i told to everyone through the months is happening to me today. PRACTICE. DRAW. AND BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU RE DOING. Never regret your choices and let your creativity flow.  

φ(ﾟ ωﾟ//）♡  BUT DON T WORRY ! An infinite cookie neveh die ! i’ll be always there for answering to all of your awesome asks and share your art! i will enjoy every single thing but i’ll be artistically less active ! 

Thanks for your support ! 

I will certainly upload more stuff on my other personal account @expensivebrowniez

[indigo-daydream]

Note to self: The end of the school year is (with the only exception being the exam season) the worst time of the school year

[babeejeon]

it's officially summer now that summer dramas started in tv and I am watching all of them and dreaming romance in summer night breeze

[nyucheri]

Please tag your life is strange spoilers because i won't be able to play it when it comes out :'^)

[hooksandheroics]

dropping by real fast to tell you that you all are awesome for not leaving me ahaha and that i’m hoping you’re all having real nice days because i’m sick with the flu and am having the worst day possible. anyway, hi, bye, love you.

:))

[hero-of-heights]

"I'm never gonna find Garen or my Grandpa."