Remus took a deep breath before entering their house. He was trying to look not as shit as he felt. Judging from the look Sirius gave him, he wasn't really successful. Sirius was on the couch, watching some documentary on Netflix and petting Padfoot(their dog) at the same time. Just as Sirius opened his mouth to say something, Remus interrupted him quickly. "Erm I'm going to shower now." And he walked rapidly towards their bathroom. Quickly removing his clothes, he adjusted the temperature-close to scalding. He knew he'd have to face Sirius at some point but right now I needed this. As the hot water cascaded on his body, he felt some knots in his stomach dissapearing. It wasn't perfect. He knew he would feel like that. He always did when he went back to his school. But he needed those documents so he grinded his teeth and went. And it was way more awful than what he expected. He had been misgendered the whole day. True he hadn't tell anyone about his gender at that point: he himself learnt that he was genderfluid after school. But that didn't mean it hurt less being viewed as a boy. Reliving those moments, he felt his eyes prickle. Blinking and willing those tears to go away, he grabbed his favourite body shower (lily scented-ironically given by Lily herself) and washed himself. Leaning against the wall, he let the water flow on him. Fuck what skin experts say. He needed this scalding water right now. Finally getting out, he toweled himself and grabbed his favourite and largest tshirt and some boxers. Once he wore them, he made his way to his bed. Just as he was sliding under the duvet, Sirius came into the room with some tea. He placed it on the table next to Remus side and wordlessly joined his boyfriend. He was wearing just pyjama bottoms though. He wrapped his arms around Remus, and let Remus tuck his face into his neck. They weren't in the most comfortable position with Remus being way taller than Sirius, but that was the best Remus felt all day. When he felt Sirius massaging his scalp and occasionally kissing him on his shoulders, he felt himself tearing up again. If Sirius noticed, Remus was grateful he didn't say anything. He simply continued massaging him and murmuring soft words to him. "I hated everything today." Remus told Sirius after some time. He simply muttered the words against Sirius chest. He didn't want to ever let go of the of Sirius' skin. He absolutely loved his scent and had always associated it to home. "I know love. And I'm really sorry about that." Sirius held him even tighter and kissed him deeply. Both of them fell asleep at some point. When Remus woke up, he could not distinguish his limbs from Sirius'. They were just entangled arou d each other. True he had spent an awful day but atleast he knew he would have Sirius at the end of the day.
