didn’t get into the bnha zine i really wanted to get into
disappointed but surprised, but i’m still bummed out because i let myself be get all “BUT BUT BUT MAYBE” in my head
idk if it’s lack of skill writing (probably true) or if it’s because i’m an acquired taste/people get put off by things i like (also probably true)
unrelated and this obviously doesn’t apply to everyone... i do feel sometimes that people don’t like me or at least don’t want me around because of my particular interests/faves/fics/etc. and idk it makes me feel like i should go back to just doing my own thing and not really engaging with people in the fandom because i do constantly worry i’m offending someone or upsetting them in some way
i should probably just suck it up and stop whining, like oh wow everything went completely as expected, let’s cry about it -_-