#and overly dramatic

[anophiles]

I have been watching too many thai dramas again but I love those two??

[whenyoulosesmallmind]

oc name playlist

I got tagged by @goblin-deity! Thank you so much

Rules: Spell out your OC’s name - with a playlist! (Every letter = the first letter of a song title.)

I jokingly renamed this meme the ‘Poets of the Fall song meme’ since, well. I am a bit of a one trick pony when it comes to music and I love POTF so, so much. Then! Let’s see how many POTF songs I can fit into this bad boy, eh?

Then again, I decided I will be doing this meme for all my main worldstate Dragon Age ocs so I will just be maybe quoting some songs lyrics and link the song, without much explaination, else I’d be here all week.

I’m tagging: @for-lovely-things, @space-vashoth, @dickeybbqpit, @keeperscompanionsdai and you, lovely reader! You’re breathtaking!

Morred Mahariel - bonus: (post Trespasser, with a side of zevwarden) Victim; FUZI x Mili  

isn’t it funny / we worship a moon that stole its light from the sun

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M - My dark disquiet; Poets of the Fall

we are momentary masters / we’re false kings and bastards

O - Once upon a playground rainy; Poets of the Fall

out back / when the gates are closed / like a pitiful skeleton pose / we held our first line of defense / saw our likeness / and it made no sense

R - Rumors; Poets of the Fall

standing silent vigil over the moments of ease that still remain / with a thorn to the side for every good deed […] another chance another line to define / and we will dance, we will play, and experience a lifetime /  every day is a day we die

R - Rightfully; Mili

swallow your fate / lubricate our blades with blood and tears / and your piercing screams are music to celebrate

E - Earth invasion; Skillet

one plot to save the world / reclaim all races and embrace our destiny / changing history when the colliding comes / where will you run? / come with us if you want to live

D - Diamonds for tears; Poets of the Fall

if I rested here a while more, would you hold me to your heart / if I knew what it’s meant for, would I know to play my part […] is it a lost cause / can we overlook this taint / are these the dead laws / like a doubt eating the saint

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Hamlet Hawke - bonus: (fenhawke, after Hamlet was left in the Fade) The Distance; Poets of the Fall  

don’t you worry, there’ll be a time when our hearts beat the same / let life carry / across the distance I still see your flame / don’t you worry there’ll be a time when our hearts beat the same / let life carry

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H - Heal my wounds; Poets of the Fall

and there is no why, there is no how, it’s like the sky, just one free flow / but you’re here right now, and this is your show, so take a bow, cos the show is on…

A - Aerials, System of a Down

life is a waterfall / we’re one in the river / and one again after the fall

M - Mr. Brightside; The Killers

jealousy, turning saints into the sea / swimming through sick lullabies / choking on your alibi / but it’s just the price I pay / destiny is calling me / open up my eager eyes / ‘cause I’m Mr. Brightside

L - Locking up the sun; Poets of the Fall

is there a hero somewhere, someone who appears and saves the day / someone who holds out a hand and turns back time / is there a hero somewhere, someone who will never walk away / who doesn’t turn a blind eye to a crime

E - El condor pasa; Simon&Garfunkel

a man gets tied up to the ground / he gives the world its saddest sound

T - The show must go on; Queen

another hero, another mindless crime / behind the curtain, in the pantomime / hold the line, does anybody want to take it anymore?

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Arvaari Adaar - bonus: (adaarian, mostly Dorian’s POV) Fool’s paradise; Poets of the Fall

and it feels like flying / outta fool’s paradise / and there’s no denying / but I’ll pay the price / with my fear and doubt / I’ll leave them in their cages / and rise to blinding heights

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A - Awake and alive; Skillet

I’ll do what I want ‘cause this is my life / here, right here / right now / stand my ground and never back down /  I know what I believe inside / I’m awake and I’m alive

R - Revolution roulette; Poets of the Fall

leaves you no arguments to trade, you can try the key or you can wait / but the lock will not open / so you’re left with sanity to lose, ‘cause the machine is a ruse / another invention to rule them

V - Violence (enough is enough); A Day to Remember

I’m still believing that life has a meaning / can’t cope with thinkin’ that there’s not / I’m so divided that I try to hide it / it’s the only real thing that I’ve got

A - Angel; Poets of the Fall

if I conceal my fear / will I be in the clear / or am I giving life to phantom pain

A - A different world; Korn

this world that I try to hide / it’s kind of a mess / too reckless for you / this place makes me feel alive

R - Rewind; Poets of the Fall

if life itself has a meaning, is it anything more than what we choose to call it / sweet words make appealing, but they only serve to mask the smell of what you buried

I - Illusion & dream; Poets of the Fall

it doesn’t solve a thing to dress it in a pretty gown / a stone will not need you to guess if, you’re still going to drown 

[ironicallyantiquated]

This is a personal post just to get my thoughts down and out because I’m incredibly frustrated and no other ways of venting have been helping much, so why not. Feel free to ignore.

Angel’s still gone. I’m sorta coming to terms with the fact that she might be gone gone, which is incredibly difficult for part of me to believe - I’ve had her for most of my life. She was there for all of my toughest points, and now she’s gone, and it was really unexpected and sudden, and I don’t even know what happened. I probably will never know what happened. At this point I don’t know what else to do. I have put up brightly colored, laminated posters with all of her information and good quality, recent photos on nearly every street corner of my neighborhood. I have joined every lost pet group online for the city of Houston, let alone my area, a local neighborhood alert app, and have alerted and sent photos and info to local vets, shelters, and pet stores. I check internet databases of animals currently in shelters every morning. I even went so far as to pass out posters door to door - around 150 posters delivered, in person, to everyone in a radius that I think she would travel and a little bit beyond that.

My area doesn’t have basements or lifted foundations, our homes are laid on solid slabs of concrete. No one here has porches she could get under, and no one in that radius even has a shed she could’ve gotten into. This neighborhood is densely packed. There are no fields nearby, or wooded areas, just residential lots with people cooped up inside of them. What I’m saying is that at this point, I can’t honestly believe that no one knows what happened to Angel. Someone has to know, right? Either they found her remains - decomposition isn’t fun to have around your home, and it would’ve gotten pretty noticeable by now - or they are keeping hold of her despite my obvious desire to have her back home, or she was sent off somewhere. I’ve offered rewards for any level of info. I just want to know what happened.

My house is filled with little reminders that she’s gone. She was healthy, with a shining coat, a friendly disposition, and was well fed. She showed no signs of ill health the last time I had her - she was eating, she was leaping up and off of furniture, purring, meowing, and playing with... honestly, a receipt? Still don’t know where she found it, but she woke me up by skittering it around my bedroom and through the hallway. I don’t see how anyone could justify just taking someone’s animal that is obviously being loved and cared for. On the one hand, I’m torn between feeling like I’m probably wrong and she managed to get somewhere no one could find her, but on the other hand that’s hard to accept knowing my area. So, incredibly frustrating. Just feeling lost and stupid for letting this happen and miserable.

Right, venting over. This is mostly for self reflection, sorry to anyone who actually read this mess.

[blxebxy]

I really wish I got asks, but people obviously don’t feel a need to ask me anything

[finndecision]

I'm going to shoot blood out of my eyes. And it's going to be poison blood.

coworker friend

[musicthoughtslife]

sometimes i wish i was just a pretty girl with a nice face and perfect legs. and by sometimes, i mean every single second of my existence.

[streamofconscienceness]

I feel like I'm living a Ben Gibbard song right now. 

I stand here at this crossroad As in many tales of old Where heroes traveled through the night Part of some grand, noble fight Took the time time to decide What tempo pace and length of stride They would set before themselves

To the left or to the right, but see Is there really any choice? To the left or the the right, my plea Has drained away my voice

So I stand on this, my precipice Of a choice, with no real benefits Either way, much work to do But what right do I have if you Decide to go, move on and find A man with brain less sick than mine A reason that I can jump

To the fore or to the back I feel Neither choice can fix This tempest that I cannot heal Now I'll make the news at six

[wakkopacksawaythesnacks]

I cry about a lot of things

I cry when I’m happy

I cry when I’m sad

I cry when I’m overwhelmed

I cry when I don't feel whelmed enough

I cry when I’m shaking and can’t breathe

I cry when I’m so numb I can’t feel my toes

I cry when I can’t leave the house

I cry when I do leave and I’m away for too long

I cry after people talk to me 

I cry after people don't

I cry because I feel like I’m too emotional