Maybe you'll never really move on. Maybe you'll always love it, always love it, always love it. Maybe you'll always feel the grief for the one who was murdered, the ones who died, the house you left that changed, and even if you can go back to it it's not quite the same. And you can say: "Wait, this is something worth preserving, this is something worth remembering. This has value, and I want to talk about it, and think about it, and write about it, and try to understand it more."
And even if you'll never really "move on" from it, because you were a teenager, and people hurt you, and you heard the words of an anthem, and you came to love that country and those characters, maybe you can build something new, too. Because some part of you, you want something new, too. You want to learn, and to grow, and to make new things, not just sit there with this story that you'll probably always love, always love, always love.
You can have both.
I know you tried to "move on", and here you are again. And it's something worth remembering, it's something special, something worth loving.
You can live your life for you, too.
