#andmysoulbloomed

[andmysoulbloomed]

[Archived from July 7th, 2010.]

what the hell is going on

somebody please tell me i am not insane and that everything is real.

[andmysoulbloomed]

[Archived from July 25th, 2010]

Hello to the few people who are following this blog. Courtney's blog. I promised I would make a better post detailing things. I guess now is that time.

I've realized I've made the bad habit of promising to update. Promising to tell you all on what I do and don't know. I would like to apologize for that. I don't really use the internet that often.

I saw the post apparently made by Courtney a few days ago. I honestly don't know what to make of it. If it's her, then I'd really like for her to be a bit more upfront. I really

really would.

If its not her and its actually some weird like creep that got into her account somehow and thinks this whole thing is really funny, then whatever. i cant be bothered really at the moment.

In late may i went to courtney's house. nobody has been there in ages, and none of the lights have been on in months. the power bill is still paid, the lights like worked when i got into the house, but

everything there is just wrong. i dont know how to properly describe it.

and eventually somehow I sort of... "woke up". That's not the best term but its the closest. and then it was somehow july 7th. I had somehow just. moved forward in time. i dont know what happened and what i did wrong but everything is just. so so wrong.

i found some things inside of her house, but i cant describe them. i could try and take pictures but every time i try that it just. will not work. my drawings are decent at best but i could try to sketch them down.

there's more to it but it is. so very hard to speak now. even on here. i know i sound absolutely insane. but it is almost like these locks were placed all throughout my memory. doors and windows into certain things are now locked. there are so many chunks of memory that just feel. blacked out. like somebody took ink to it and covered everything up in such a hurry and its just

horrible.

im sorry i havent been keeping up or communicating well. its been very. very weird with my emotions and thoughts. mom keeps getting bothered by my "ranting". i just keep going on about things and it wasnt like this only a few months ago. normal people dont do the things ive been doing i suppose. ive been very upset. irritable.

This is what I know:

Courtney went missing around late April. She stopped coming to school, every call me or some of her other friends made wouldn't even start ringing, and her house has been assumedly abandoned since her disappearance. Attempting to contact either her mom or her boyfriend were. very unsuccessful.

Something. completely unexplainable happened to me inside of Courtney's house. Nobody has reacted or said anything to me at all about it. And whenever I have tried to tell anyone about it: radio silence!!!! :) its really great i feel great when that happens.

There are a few things I have. borrowed from her house. I will try and transcribe them. Emphasis on try. I've slowed down on checking the local news because. nothing. not a peep. Courtney's gone and the sky is blue. Yes this is a fine day indeed.

[andmysoulbloomed]

[Archived from July 20th, 2010.]

how do you explain something that you are not allowed to remember

[andmysoulbloomed]

[Archived from July 13th, 2010.]

im so frustrated.

sometimes i feel so close to solving things. making everything make sense.

and then it all just. falls apart, like something came loose in the foundation and everything on top just gets ruined. something is holding me back and pulling me back. this isnt my fault, something is intentionally putting roadblocks in front of me and when i climb over them a switch is flipped and the ground below me just dissolves and i fall. this is all metaphorical by the way. somehow ive assured myself that i havent gone completely into "twilight zone" territory yet. i dont know what is pulling me back but i can actually feel it in my bones. its like when you hear metal scrape together, and all of your body just

rattles.

i know none of this makes sense but i have nowhere else to put these words out. they cant stay in my head ill go insane. ill make a better post detailing everything i can i just need more time.

[andmysoulbloomed]

[Archived from July 7th, 2010]

oh my god

i dont know where to even start. i dont know if what im seeing is actually real or if its just fake and pasted on clips into reality i dont know whats going on

i went to courtneys house and went through the back patio door and into her room

that's all i remember everything just

stopped

i didnt blank out or pass out or anything it all just stopped i have no memory

the sky changed the weather changed everything changed it was different from when i had gotten inside and everything was broken and a mess her clothes were everywhere and i ran out there was blood fro m my nose god

i swear

honest to every fucking god in existence

that all happened today. i checked the date on my laptop thought nothing of it right and it says july 7th.

how did i move forward i checked the calender the time on the microwave in my kitchen everything and nothing was tampered this isnt a prank on me something is seriously wrong

how did time move like that what is going on i need to stop i need to stop this i need to leave do i need to leave i need to see somebody talk to somebody i need to feel real

[andmysoulbloomed]

hey, i was wondering are you alright courtney? youve been MIA for a while and im getting very worried

and if you dont get this well if someone else is on this blog can you let me know if courtney is okay? thank you

a very concerned you know who, who would like to get his skateboard back

[Archived from May 17th, 2010.]

This is Carmen, Courtney's friend from school. I'm currently keeping this blog for her because she gave me the password a while back, and well... she clearly isn't here to run it herself... Actually, sorry random (I think I know who you are), but I may just turn your question into a general message for everyone to read. I think there are some things I want to say.

Sorry if I haven't been consistent on updating you guys.. I've been essentially keeping tabs on any sort of news in our local area, contacting her other friends, family, anything under the sun really. I'm really worried. More worried than anyone else seems to be.

I've stopped by her house at least three different times this past week, and there's absolutely nothing. Her mom and her mom's boyfriend haven't been there, and everything's locked. I can't get in, and the spare key Courtney trusted me with ages ago doesn't work anymore. I couldn't find it for a while but it was stashed in my dresser. But yeah turns out its completely useless. Her mom got the locks changed late last year. Her mom's always been a little on the paranoid side, but with how everything is right now, I've began thinking back on a few things. I'm really worried.

The school semester is almost over and she hasn't been there at all. I've asked some of her teachers and they just... brush it off and tell me that she's probably sick. None of them are taking this seriously and the counselor refuses to see me. I'm getting increasingly frustrated and some of her friends have stopped taking my calls.

I'm running out of options, and all of Courtney's previous posts on here are... concerning, to say the least. I've tried filing reports with the police and I've even tried sending a few emails to our local news. None of them have gotten back to me. I'm so confused. This is clearly a missing persons case, but everyone is treating it like as if she's flown out for some luxury retreat. No. She's missing and I have reason to believe she's not in great shape. Mentally or physically. The last few days she showed up at school she looked sick, and she acted as if she was.. dreaming? I don't know but it felt like she wasn't there at all and it really freaked me out.

Sorry for the long response but i feel like i havent done the best job at keeping everyone posted. im sorry ive just been really distracted with making sure my best friend isnt dead off somewhere.

if anyone else knows anything feel free to tell me please tell me. i would really appreiacte the help. just.

i know this is a stupid idea but ill do it anyway ill put my phonenumber here so any of you can tell me anything. im usually asleep after 11 but ill gladly wake up if theres anything you know and you want to tell me. ill take anything i can get at this point

my phone number: ***-***-**** [Redacted for privacy reasons. My attempts to call this number in present time only resulted in an automated 'This number is no longer available' message.]

if you dont feel comfortable calling me you can text whatever you know. really at this point anything will work. but please if you know anything and i mean anything about where courtney is or what you think shes doing please reach out. it'll help more than you even know.

if nothing comes up soon i might try and break into her house if i can. there's a door in her room that leads out to a patio, so i'll see if i can slip in through there, as sometimes she left it unlocked for some of us to sneak into when her mom was sleeping.

I guess that's all. Sorry if I seem a little worrying right now I'm just. really freaked out.

I'll try and keep you all in the know. Thank you.

[andmysoulbloomed]

[Archived from May 6th, 2010]

hey everyone this is carmen, one of Courtney's friends from school

courtney hasn't been at school for a while now, and im getting pretty worried

she gave me the password to this account a while ago, it was supposed to be a shared thing between us but i dunno I've been pretty busy.

i was wondering if any of you guys on here knew anything about what she's been up to? I'm looking through all of her posts on here right now, and they're really weird.

sorry I don't really know how to use this website. but please just let me know what's going on with her. she won't take any of my calls or texts and whenever i go to her house it always looks empty like there's nobody there, and I can't find the spare key she gave me

sorry to worry anyone but I'm getting really freaked out

[andmysoulbloomed]

[Archived from April 21st, 2010]

School's kicking my ass.. I got a really good idea for a new craft to show all of you while sitting in class though. I think you all will love it. :)

wanna know something silly i did by accident?? i put that flower candle into my bag. i saw it when I was putting a few notebooks into my locker. i'm such a clutz lmao. I think it kinda looked cute in there though. I think I might start bringing it with me to class every day now. the wax hardens and stuff so it doesn't melt on any of my stuff or anything. and all the little flower petals from the park are still there. it's like I'm carrying a piece of it around with me wherever I go now. that's kinda sweet.