[Archived from July 25th, 2010]
Hello to the few people who are following this blog. Courtney's blog. I promised I would make a better post detailing things. I guess now is that time.
I've realized I've made the bad habit of promising to update. Promising to tell you all on what I do and don't know. I would like to apologize for that. I don't really use the internet that often.
I saw the post apparently made by Courtney a few days ago. I honestly don't know what to make of it. If it's her, then I'd really like for her to be a bit more upfront. I really
really would.
If its not her and its actually some weird like creep that got into her account somehow and thinks this whole thing is really funny, then whatever. i cant be bothered really at the moment.
In late may i went to courtney's house. nobody has been there in ages, and none of the lights have been on in months. the power bill is still paid, the lights like worked when i got into the house, but
everything there is just wrong. i dont know how to properly describe it.
and eventually somehow I sort of... "woke up". That's not the best term but its the closest. and then it was somehow july 7th. I had somehow just. moved forward in time. i dont know what happened and what i did wrong but everything is just. so so wrong.
i found some things inside of her house, but i cant describe them. i could try and take pictures but every time i try that it just. will not work. my drawings are decent at best but i could try to sketch them down.
there's more to it but it is. so very hard to speak now. even on here. i know i sound absolutely insane. but it is almost like these locks were placed all throughout my memory. doors and windows into certain things are now locked. there are so many chunks of memory that just feel. blacked out. like somebody took ink to it and covered everything up in such a hurry and its just
horrible.
im sorry i havent been keeping up or communicating well. its been very. very weird with my emotions and thoughts. mom keeps getting bothered by my "ranting". i just keep going on about things and it wasnt like this only a few months ago. normal people dont do the things ive been doing i suppose. ive been very upset. irritable.
This is what I know:
Courtney went missing around late April. She stopped coming to school, every call me or some of her other friends made wouldn't even start ringing, and her house has been assumedly abandoned since her disappearance. Attempting to contact either her mom or her boyfriend were. very unsuccessful.
Something. completely unexplainable happened to me inside of Courtney's house. Nobody has reacted or said anything to me at all about it. And whenever I have tried to tell anyone about it: radio silence!!!! :) its really great i feel great when that happens.
There are a few things I have. borrowed from her house. I will try and transcribe them. Emphasis on try. I've slowed down on checking the local news because. nothing. not a peep. Courtney's gone and the sky is blue. Yes this is a fine day indeed.