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Yexuan sketches i did last night while waiting for his route to drop.. I might not post any doodle again over here, moved to twitter @.anirakugaki thank you! (I still post my finished render dw!)

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Can we talk about how HE glance to her hand and then back to her face again like THATS SO HOTTTT AAAGGGHHH

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Hi, i just wanna appreciate how they show her face over here ..🙇‍♀️ kaksksksjsis

Hlr's art never fails to amaze me how beautifully they draw every card.. The color pick here is so light showing peaceful pure romantic scene .. And everytime they draw Yexuan and Lilpainter, it's always how he look at her! It's so pretty and so gentle. His eyes tells everything that he is truly hold her dear.

He doesn't need to speak it with his mouth. Just eyes alone .. is enough ..

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Look, i know he is just sitting there watching the sun but why this scene looks so sad to me BECAUSE ALL OF HIS STORY IS JUST MAKING MY HEART BROKE TO PIECES I CANNOT THINK NORMAL ABOUT THIS MAN!!!! YEXUAN!!!!

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I can actually make a doujin for Yexuan and Lilpainter in the future ... hehe ..? pepesmile pepesmile

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I think this is will be up in 4am uhh

But hey, you better to read and understand yexuan story first before taking judgements about him 😶

Look, try to understand him better. Read his other main story ? Ragnarok? Mist city? Side story ? You'll be miss so many story development of yexuan's background if you haven't read those, because man, yexuan's a very complicated character to understand unless you keep digging infos about him and understand him better!! You should also look from his prespective how he sees mc and how mc sees him.

You dont take a conclusions so fast based on how peepos throwing a ss because you don't fully see how they read and what is happening on the story over there. I think it's better for not jumping and take thoughts so fast if you dont read the story fully, what is the point??

I just play this year but i never have a thought to dare taking a conclusions about yexuan at first glance or how peepos throwing a ss to me. I keep digging his background, stories, his character development, discussing with fellow yexuan's fans until then I realize that his character is so peak after you read a lot of his story

And are you sure you know yexuan because you seems don't know anything about him, his struggles, how he deal with himself. There's a lot of progress happening on this year story about him that you better should read and understand before taking a thoughts about him!!!!

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Some thoughts about yexuan with his return to godheim i need to get out this from my head + this is my take and dont come at me also cmiiw!! 😭... spoiler, do not look(read by your own risk also it's so long goodbye)

i was rereading return to godheim yexuan like 88671992974 times ady and I just can't help myself to cry about it everytime I read it.. I really should .. stop .. but I can't LMAO I need to seek theraphy(asmr bday save me pls I just wanna think about 1:30mins make out)

Oh god .., Silver Knight, what have they done to you that make your fate is so harsh in Godheim/Yesai Timeline? Everytime I think about how miserable his fate in there I just can't help myself but get hurted

His explaination is firm but his voice naturally softened when he spoke about her, even Hammel is suprised hearing soft voice. And the more I think, his soft voice is because how he actually care so much about her, likes her from long ago, since his youngself when they meet as a teenagers, he just doesn't realize and can't remember anything(due empire erase his memory) so the only thing in his mind about lilpainter is his senior's daughter but deep down he knows her more than this

After repeating so many cycle of her deaths, he become anxious and hesitates because whenever she is passing away, she affecting his emotions. Hammel noticed and speaks up how this girl hold special place in his heart, he sighs and admit it that he is worried about her!!😭 This cycle is really cruel for him, he see her passing away many TIMES in his own hands how can it not make you anxious? How can he calm after repeating so many little painter's death before his eyes ?

Then he did manage to get out without any scratches left in her body, but soon the poison affect her body and the way he realize it make me so broke. Like .., He finally did it! Without a scracth??! Rescuing her from there! Can you imagine how glad he is when he thought he is finally rescuing her without her dying in his own hand. But as soon as he realize she got poisoned that delay her death, he cannot express how he's feeling, he thought he did it, he thought now can feel in ease after see her stay alive getting out from there.. he burried his face on her knees regretting his mistakes and hiding his emotions knowing that she soon will die again before his eyes, in his arms again, he must prepare for it..

This cycle is one of the hell for him, she confessed to him that lilpainter like him but he cannot return his feelings due it's heavy for him, he cannot spoke it so easily nor because she almost near her death, but because he is gonna be the one who only carries the memories and feelings alone knowing little painter will soon forget it after the new cycle start. His feeling is mixed, he doesn't look forward to see tomorrow knowing she would leave and the cyle will restart.

Now this, make me more depressed about this man. The only person he cherised is little painter and the only person he cares is her. And what if she didn't choose him after that cycle and timeloop. He will the one who bear all those bitter memories alone remembering how she said she likes him while she doesn't remember anything what she said before. Yexuan cannot avoid it, he have to witness everything about her in Yesai timeline(this is so cruel how they write 'destined' which he cannot escape from it ..), he can only watch from afar and guide her also protect her. He always have a soft spot for her but he always push it away that thoughts because he told to himself it's just a unecessary feelings that will hinder him.. There's so many things I want to explain more.. but Silver Knight fate, is really one of a cheff kiss piece. The good thing in this card is because how the ending they ended up together!! Im so happy for them! They also blessed by the goddess! After so many cycle, after so many timeloop and possibilities.. He happy together..🥹 Definetely why this is now my favorite card 😭 I NEED THIS STORIES RELEASED IN GLOBAL ASAP!!

Also i still love how he said this with a smile on his face, he is so hurted but he have to face it eventually.. Damn it yexuan, thank you for making me mentally ill(i got the ss from bilibili o<-<) hahaha