#annorexia

[niko-meoww]

I hate recovery I hate everything about it I hate having to eat now and still having the habit of looking at calories

I hate how even though I’m supposed to be gaining weight, I keep losing more weight and I’m still for some reason excited about it

I hate just eating snacks all day, rarely getting myself to finish meals

I hate not knowing what a normal amount is anymore

I hate having fear foods

I hate not liking certain things I used to love anymore and being scared of fucking numbers

And I hate insomnia I just wanna sleep

I’m so tired of crying from the smallest things

I’m so tired of being tired all the time

I hate school and having to wake up early

I hate how my uniforms and most of my clothes fit oddly too big on me, making me look weird

I hate how I can’t gain weight

I hate everything

[themaidenofwords]

Whump Prompt: Whumpee is noticeably underweight and caretaker forces them to eat a full meal. Whumpee does it to make caretaker feel better, but the moment they're alone again, Whumpee throws up all the food they just ate.