#anons challenge

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Anon, sorry these posts are so infrequent.

Let's start at the end, and then finish with the beginning. Good night lovely people. 

Mood: Sleepy as fuck >.<

Favourite things of the day: Online shopping in the Photography computer suite with Kathryn and Issy. I nearly bought a bag from ASOS. Nearly. Spending an afternoon and evening with my soul mate. Indian take-away. That funny film taking the piss out of Rambo. Driving (although I fucked up 2 minutes before I got home.. Gahhh).  The fact that Katie bought me a Kerrang! today. Which was nice and a bit.. Awkward. I haven't really liked them since Year 10 or something, but it was a nice thought. I think it was because there was a 30STM poster in the middle :3

Something I learnt: Skipping Art lessons is healthy. And also, don't cry when you stall a shitty car at a crossroads. It's only natural if the car is shit and if you've only been driving for a month or two.

How I feel about myself: Hating, really. But I'm in a downer mood because I failed at driving towards the end (even though I really was good before..) 

Excited about: Being happy and normal again. Whenever that will be.  Driving with my dad tomorrow :) Work tomorrow. And buying clothes on Thursday HURRAYYYY.  

Anon, I'm aware I suck. Honestly. I am. 

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My jeans feel too tight.

So I'm currently in the photography and art department computer suite and the room is deserted, expect for some random easels that seem have made their way in here. Probably going to search on Google Maps for the quickest escape route.

Mood: Feeling rather neutral (GAH SO BORING EM WHY ARE YOU EVEN POSTING THIS?). I woke up this morning and thought "No point in anything, especially college. Why should I get up?" but then I realised that is rather contradictory, as there would be no point whatsoever in staying in bed. So I got up.

Something I've learnt: It's not really something learnt, actually, it's more something I have recognised. Everyone is nice if you talk to them. I wish we all communicated a lot more.

How I feel about myself:I'm learning (slowly!) to accept my flaws. Yesterday, I was trying to order a panini from the Café at college and the woman serving me was quite patronizing and rude. David said she wasn't doing her job properly, but nonetheless I turned around and cried, like a child. What made matters worse was then I began to get upset that I actually CRIED OVER A PANINI, and continued to cry for a while after the panini catastrophe had happened. But what I'm getting at is, now, today, I have accepted that I am just very emotional. Over emotional, I should say. But I'd rather be like that than cold-hearted.

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Anon's challenge

Yes, I know I've been terrible at doing these. And yes I am aware that this is only my second one. I pinkie promise to try harder.

Mood: Excited and needing a wee. Pretty sure “needing a wee” is now a mood. Anyways. I’m going to a UCAS fair this afternoon (albeit with my mother) and I’m quite looking forward to getting a lot of prospectuses and talking to the sex gods at Bournemouth.

What’s annoying me: Needing a wee and being too lazy to leave the English and Media resources area. I know the loos are like, seriously, round the corner. But I’m a busy woman. (Okay, blogging and searching the National Geographic website does not count as busy but fuck you.)

Something I’ve tried Something I am going to try: Taking some cool and model-y photos of my sister full-clothed in the shower. In fairness I haven’t asked her yet and I’m preeeetty sure she’s going to say no as I doubt she’ll wanna get her clothes wet.

How I feel about myself: I’m half thinking positively and half thinking I’m a fucking retard for thinking I’ll ever make it as a photographer. I’ve got back into “GAH THE FUTURE IS GOING TO BE AWESOME” mode and some days I doubt myself so much. I’m wearing a lot of grey/dark colours today. More than normal, maybe it’s reflecting my mood? AHH DEEP MEANINGFUL SHIT.

Something that has made me happy/smile: The thought of David and me cooking dinner tonight. Dancing around to (no doubt) Daft Punk and pretending to be 24 and living together. (Well, that’s what I’ll be doing. He’ll probably just be wondering what I’ve eaten and slowly walking away).

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"Anon's challenge"

Mood: Happies. 

What's annoying me: My mother. She's putting her nose into my business as always. On and on and on about University and Open Days and blah blah blah. Does she not know I can organise this on my own? I'm going to be 18 in a few months. I'm not 9 any more.

Favourite things of the day (so far): Brendon Urie's voice, my new top, Crunchy Nut Clusters, new hair cut

Something that made me smile: Talking to Kathryn all morning. Knowing that tonight David will be holding me.

Favourite song of the day: Panic - Hurricane. 

Anon, I've only answered the questions I can do. I will mix it up and sometimes make whole posts answering one question, or all, or three.. You get my gist.  Much love to you, Anon <3