I accidentally ended up being almost an hour early for art school today, so I’m going to yap about something.
it’s actually so so peaceful to just.. take my glasses off and let the world blur into complete obscurity.
for context, I am very blind without my glasses— everything’s blurry and I couldn’t even read a book on a desk in front of me. I can’t read street signs even if I’m standing right below them, I can’t see the features of people’s faces unless I’m standing like.. kissing-distance away from them.
so I rarely take my glasses off because I cannot function without them.
I’m a very anxious person and I’m often overwhelmed by my environment, though it’s hard to notice how overwhelmed and stressed I am until I finally get a break from it all. And one way I’ve found to get a break is to take off my glasses.
I’m forced to stop paying attention to everything, because everything is too blurry to focus on. I can’t look at all the people walking around me, I can’t look at every sign, every house, every shop. All the details are gone and I don’t need to focus.
and I feel like when I take them off I’m finally actually seeing the world, taking everything in broadly instead of my focus flicking from one distraction to the next, trying to take in every detail until I fall apart.
even though I see the world clearer with my glasses, somehow it feels more real when I take them off.
I also really love how trees look blurry— the thousand little blue and white lights flickering through the soft green.. it’s really pretty
maybe it’s just the bird in me because yea darkness would calm me down too. Put a blanket over my cage or a hood over my eyes before I start panicking, please.
I am really grateful I have glasses, though. Without them I wouldn’t have access to everything that makes me happy. Honestly I would not survive without these flimsy little pieces of glass.
