WHAT DOES LIFE MEAN TO YOU?
I asked: " Why does everything seem so hard? The chance was nearby but i failed it. I am so unlucky"
She said: " Because of your mom's family side. They did so many wrong things and now we have to pay these until debts are gone"
I wonder that " how many lives do you have to repay all these guilts? Everybody makes mistake but is it you only live once? Why do you have to endure someone's failure into your life. If you judge who is right or wrong, I can only say that I actually do not know which lessons do life want to teach me
I replied her that "Nana, I do not know but in my eyes, good people were unfortunate enough to loose everything and bad person still has money to buy new things. Therefore, when will these people repay all to get completed life. Do we have to be miserable like this forever??"
I wonder again that" Do i really want my life that is controlled by visible and unvisible things? It is not me. I rather believe that I am useless and not good enough to get what I want and keep moving forwards. I wont compare anyone life and live for myself. Sometimes, something will comes when it is right time, if it is not, it will be yours unfortunately..."