Dear Diary

My feeling for daily life

[wondersillycirclett]

Thursday 12.2.2026

A note to myself

Another day with mixing feelings

Good things: my new manager starts working well. I love the way she becomes proactive

Again, you can never avoid some who pretend to be nice but talk behind your back.

Dear all, everyone has different working styles and people make mistakes. What is the purpose for your competition ( learning new things and developing yourself or satisfying your feeling). No matter what it is for, you win in your own game and i exclude myself into that. Word comes to word. If you do not hear it, it is nit for you. Instead of concerning about it, please focus on yourself. Each person has different working styles as long as it suits you best. You learn to take other opinion but ensure you do your own way ( work should not involve your personal feelings). My manager said some would complain about her works when she went to maternity leave and now i understand what she means. Again, people make mistakes and now i feel appreciated when she understands and gets me over it. If you look the whole picture instead of an ugly part, the result may amaze you.

Positive things: i got my favorite iced tiramisu latte from Starbucks and i love Burwood staffs for making it become special drink for me ( great attitude to you all). Tomorrow, Starbucks will have $5matcha range drink, i am dancing right now hehe. Additionally, I have Ed Sheeran concert tomorrow so this Friday becomes so excited. One more day to go and i can make it…

TODAY, POWERBALL IS 80 MILLION AND YOU NEVER KNOW 🤣😝

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I am thankful that my family raise me in the right way. I know that it was not my parents responsibility to support me and they had tried their best. I should not blame them as i did not support them back. Their love to me is unconditional and i do love them but for some moments, i feel tired with everything when they are to dedicated to their family’s side…

Dear mom and dad

I just want to say thanks and i know u r too good. I hope one day, we can travel or experience more things in life. Instead of giving money, i hope i can lead u to enjoy more in life as u deserve it. Younger brother said i were healing too much and your saving money advice is not wrong. However, we only live once and i hope u enjoy your life more instead of worrying family and money. I dont understand how u can forgive to your siblings when they have not helped in your difficult situation but i choose to respect your choice. We decide our life and i choose to live happily and support u both in different way if i have a chance

My current goal is staying settle and hope i can stay here ….

Our life will be better. I truly believe it and i promise xx

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A friend said i should lead the man in relationship, be active and make a decision. Even my your brother said the same. The world seems changing or my thinking becomes differently. Why does younger boy attract older woman? Or how do they like experienced ladies? They want someone that can lead them. For me, the relationship comes from 2 sides. Both efforts are necessary and showing our responsibilities/ commitment. Everyone will experience their life differently. I still do not know what i am looking for. Dear my future man, i hope i can show u my current diary and we can laugh together about this. I can imagine that i will be so shy and let u lead in our first date but i promise, we both make out efforts in our relationship. We will both learn and grow together. If i cannot find anyone, i accept my fate but i will not change my thinking because of someone’s advice. I live my own life and i will be responsible with its.

17/8/2025 - love and prioritise to myself xx

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Friday 8 August 2025

Today wishlist

1. Resolve my visa

2. Become manager or achieve work progress

3. Save more money (at least 10k)

4. Move house

5. Face recover

6. Travel back to Vietnam and somewhere else

7. Stay healthy

8. Loose weight (around 52kg?)

9. Win lottery

10. Buy property

11. Be happy

12. Stay healthy

13. Have a car?

14. Visit family

15. Attend best-friend weeding

16. Find right bf?

17. Learn sth new

Resolution date: 1 Jan 2026

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I always ask someone regarding my relationship. In fact, i have made decision. Dear Katie, trust your gut feeling and do not use someone’s opinion as your personal excuse. You are responsible with your decision and you will never regret if it is right or wrong. No one should get your personal blame except yourself. You live your own life and it is not them. Their personal experience may affect their thinking and you may not go through it. There is no problem for taking someone’s ideas and learn from their experience but life is unpredictable. Grandma said i am so innocent, i should play a game with boy but my thought was for what. She will never trust a man because of her past experience and i understand what she means. However, i choose to be honest and whatever life giving me. My seeds can choose to grow in good or bad ways. They can be a beautiful roses/ sunflowers or faded flowers. When i meet someone, it is my personal feeling to be w him or not. There is no right or wrong with your standard and i will take my responsibility with the decision. Your brother, you are right as i am a dreamer and I may not have a boyfriend. Dear both, i choose to believe that there is someone outside for me. Like a song, a thousand years, he will show that he deserves my waiting. If he is not, i will accept my fate….

#sunday20.7.2025#randomthought#thanksforeverything

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Sunday 20/7/2025

Personal wishlist

-Resolving my visa

-Becoming manager

-Having a car

-Moving house

-Winning lottery :)

-Having bf?…

-Attending bf’s wedding

-Visiting family

-Saving at least $10k

-Traveling somewhere (not Sydney or HCM city)

Goal tracking: 31/12/2025

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My goodness!!!

How many times I have to tell you that my concentration is only our family. If they are good to you, I will talk with them. Otherwise, I will see them like strangers

My brother said I have so many illustrations and these relatives help our family. So ****.

Dear mom

You said if i do not talk with your sister, you will loose your face. Her daughter has helped you alot so i have to be polite to her even though I were awkward with her words that I should go back to our country if I cannot support my parents

I am polite with them because they are your brothers and sisters but If your life become pathetic because of them. NOT ANYMORE

I am sorry for not being generous. If you raise me, I hope you understand your daughter. My priorities are our family and myself only. You said i should expand my connection and honestly, you never try to understand completely. You think everything is so simple.

I am really tired. I will not please anyone. You can tell your relatives that i do not want to talk with them. Leave me alone!!!

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Self-protection~ Selfish

My grandma used to say about my fate that my parents could not count on my brother or mine. I am unsure if she did remember but i were said for a while 

She did compare between my uncle life and my dad and said my uncle will grow old with better life with good supporting from his children

What a life!! For me, my parents are the most kindness over the world. I hate their relatives but i know they love them unconditionally even they keep hurting my dad and mom so many times. However, what do they receive for being a good person? ....

Gradually, i stay away things easily. You can say that i am stubborn and i will regret after that

Yes, i know i do but i choose to protect my insecure feeling first

If you said hurtful things to me, sorry i will choose to cut it off

I used to things everything is same but now i dont know

There are many factors and i think it changes 

Please go ahead and think what you want

Rather said bad with each other, i choose to protect myself

Once day, if i cannot stand everything at all, what i should do

You should know you are my everything, i spend my haft life with you and even closer with you than my mom

Everytime i talked with you and all my problems became smaller

I only need someone to show my feeling 

Now i dont know i should continue..............................................................

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Betrayal feeling

Sometimes, you have to accept things may not happen like what you want. There are so many people let you down and please do not disappoint about this. They will never realise that their actions and words hurt your feeling. You think she is your good friend but she regards you as a normal friend and at the end, please learn a lesson that do not depend to anyone. The loneliness or even sadness will overpass. If you think you deserve better, you do not need to define yourself or let anyone console your feeling. Different person has different perspective and I will admit that life is more crucial than I expect. When you were on your dating apps, man is also looking for high social and good looking lady. People are reality in a way that if you are honest but you have nothing, you will end up having nothing left. 

Dear all who have hurted my feeling today and even before

I COMPLETELY FORGIVE YOU ALL

You have your own thinking and I cannot change your mind

For me, i rather losing everything than giving anyone a chance to hurt my feeling again and again

At the end, your true feeling is most important than anything or anyone else

I do not want turn myself into someone else to fit your image or become a version that I also hate later on. Being true, honest and reliable person is what i want and no matter what. 

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Dear myself on an afternoon Sunday (Gửi tôi vào một trưa chủ nhật)

Clearly, you can buy the food you love, the drink you like and enjoy eagerly. Therefore, focus on present and try to work hard to save money. Do not bother boy things. Things will come unexpectedly. The right person will know your value. Do not let anyone interfere or make you doubt yourself.

Everybody has different path of their life. You do not know how they suffer. Do not compare and live your own life. I hope one day all the hard things in my life will make me shine and find my real passion

BE WHO YOU ARE AND LIVE SIMPLE

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Gradually, I realise that I will never feel disappointed if there is no high expectations.

The life between dream and reality is totally different. Sometimes, things never happen in the right direction….

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The stories of passerby

As working at the bakery, it gives me so many stories to tell. My colleague said you remembered customers so well and i replied that only with some friendly ones and they make my day. I mean it is not only nice customers but also the regular ones who bought the same items every single day. You might not like their attitude but they are actually loyalty with your bakery..

I have one customer who always ask to warm up her bread and put it in another paper bag that she said double bags. At first, i feel annoyed about this because she can eat straight after heating up and she was wasting an extra paper bag. However, you cannot deny that at least she is brave when she speak up for what she wants. Have you actually done it before?? Once time, when i went to Coles and bought mix seafood marinara which are the mixtures of basas , salmons, shrimps, squids and mussels but the staff gave me the weighted part which i did not really like and i was say nothing beforehand. Therefore, no one knows what you want until you say it to them. Don’t expect too much from the stranger.

There are 2 girls came to my shop and started browsing around while we were getting busy. After that they ordered 2 cheese and bacon rolls in 2 separated bags. They kept talking with each other and didn’t even care my question that if they would like to warm up their bread rolls. At the end, while i already took the money for both of bacon rolls from one of them, the other said she wanted to pay separately. I said you can pay back for your friend and sorry because i already take her money. They look at me in unpleasant way. However, i will react the same if it happens like that again. I know that you have to be nice with your customer but it doesn’t mean you take advantages and do not understand when someone is busy or behaves brutal because of having a bad day. You have to learn how to respect everyone before expecting everybody treats you decently.

One of my favorite customer, Kate came today and i showed her how excited I am for the Friday. After that, she asked if I remembered about the poet which she mentioned before. I said I couldn’t and asked her to repeat it for me. She said “pissed off Friday, tomorrow is Saturday”in a lower voice and we both laugh hardly. We greet each other for having a lovely weekend. Sometimes, the happiness comes from the simple thing.

…. Continue

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Dear love

I just want to say that the unfair happens sometimes and you are out of luck. I know you are crying inside but it is not your fault. You try the best. The good people have seen those. Sometimes, it leads you to another better choices so do not get hard to yourself. Don’t get stressed. You still find your way to survive. I don’t know if they will regret to loose a hard working like you or not but who cares. Keep moving forward and do not look back. You will find your way

Be kind and stay strong as you are always.

Yourself xoxo

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WHAT DOES LIFE MEAN TO YOU?

I asked: " Why does everything seem so hard? The chance was nearby but i failed it. I am so unlucky"

She said: " Because of your mom's family side. They did so many wrong things and now we have to pay these until debts are gone"

I wonder that " how many lives do you have to repay all these guilts? Everybody makes mistake but is it you only live once? Why do you have to endure someone's failure into your life. If you judge who is right or wrong, I can only say that I actually do not know which lessons do life want to teach me

I replied her that "Nana, I do not know but in my eyes, good people were unfortunate enough to loose everything and bad person still has money to buy new things. Therefore, when will these people repay all to get completed life. Do we have to be miserable like this forever??"

I wonder again that" Do i really want my life that is controlled by visible and unvisible things? It is not me. I rather believe that I am useless and not good enough to get what I want and keep moving forwards. I wont compare anyone life and live for myself. Sometimes, something will comes when it is right time, if it is not, it will be yours unfortunately..."

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Mommy. I know you will never see it but could you take care of yourself first please.

Sorry i feel really tired. I dont think i can say any. You never try to undestand our family members rather than your relative and your friends.

The more word i say the more things i will break your heart even though i care for you from the bottom of my heart. Now i just pray our family will stay healthy and i have my own life. We have different life’s path. I do not have right to judge your choice and I won’t do it any more. My word will keep in silence and i will try to make my own peace.

I hope we will understand each other one day but i dont know how long it will be

At least, you raise me to be a good person and i do until now. The life is so complicated and money makes people greedy. Therefore, if you let money control you, you loose yourself. Beliefs become joke when your family members betrayed you. Like a human, they care for themselves first and why don’t you are. I dont know should i call it kindness or stupidity......

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Me: “Wake up please. How many times do you ignore my feelings :(. Why don’t you live for yourself rather than these stupid people mom”

I scare to loose my dearest family members but i feel hurt when you don’t believe us. You turn me down so easily. Gradually, i choose to be silent and keep distance so that we don’t say hurtful things for each other.

I just want to say that i always love you mom and the reason i hate them because they hurt you so many times.

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Where should i go??- North Pole🤪 They said”Ring the bell” and I actually did it🙈🎄🎄🤶🤶 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJNjSqSDjutnjxulbx2ta-_eG5FFYLtGSnlP7Y0/?igshid=osb7uuleuvh0