i miss you. i know i pretend i don’t. and i know we walk past each other like we never spent multiple nights talking about our hopes or laughing or sharing weird thoughts. i miss telling you when our song came on. i miss being able to tell you everything, i miss your laugh and your scent. i miss your family even though i felt awkward around them. i miss being at your room and seeing whatever change you made to it. i miss having someone to rely on as much as i did on you. i miss the days when we promised we would actually be friends forever. you promised me and you did nothing to keep me. i’ve always been a click away. why is it that we could tell each other anything and now we’re too scared to even look each other ? i know it doesn’t hurt you like it does me. i had never had a friend like you and i really wanted to keep you in my life forever, i was so proud for being able to keep a friend. it’s hard not to blame myself. i’ve tried mending stuff multiple times but it’s not the same. i miss being in the car blasting wish you were here or creep. i miss your little weird habits. i miss you tucking my belly in when i stood weird. i miss you being my #1. i miss having you around, i missed the person you used to be around me