Kris hasn't been... well. Ever since they were struck by a proverbial rock in their sleep, Kris has kind of been drifting in and out of awareness. One second they're laughing with Susie or one of their other friends, then they blink and it's like the whole day passed by without them there. Tenna has noticed - and they're sure Susie noticed too - but they haven't the bandwidth to fully appreciate it beyond the relief that no one is forcing them to talk.
Chara was good conversation, but... It doesn't really help.
There are things they can't tell a kid, no matter how much said kid has been through and seen and experienced. It's so... much. So much more than just jealousy and shitty emotional regulation. And there's no way Kris can talk to Susie about any of it beyond the "good" parts. She deserves to be happy about those memories and that day all things considered.
But they feel like they're going to burst if they have to keep walking around with all of this in their chest.
Which is why the Soul has been stuffed into the trash can in their room. Without it there, listening and waiting, they feel a bit more confident in their ability to get the words out. They just... can't wait too long.
They awkwardly stand in front of Tenna, head bowed and hands in their sleeves while they try to find the words. They made sure it was just them in the house, and had told Tenna they wanted to talk about something personal and important, but, they don't know how to. They've never spoken unprompted or so openly about things like this.
"... Tenna, can I... is it okay if I talk to you about..." Kris hesitates, looking as if they're struggling to continue their question. "... Do... um..." Kris swallows, gripping the cuffs of their sweater's sleeves. "... I remembered things. I'm sure Susie told you she has too." They feel their throat getting tighter, but try to push through it.
It takes a few more seconds of struggle before they can continue. "But I... can't talk to Susie about it. I'm sure her memories are much nicer than mine... at least I hope so..." They rub the back of their hand, phantom pain aching deep in their bones, and sink down to sit on the couch, stiff and awkward and uncomfortable.
Their thumbnail digs against the back of their hand. A present ache to keep them anchored to the moment.
"... Does it make me a bad person to be... I dunno... scared, I guess, of Noelle showing up here? Again. I mean."