#anxietyresponse

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Interesting facts #29

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…Ad Astra (to the stars),

Cynane

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…Ad Astra (to the stars),

Cynane

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Behind a titanium-clad wall

It's never easy to feel. Because that makes it simpler to love but even easier to get hurt. When u feel, you are letting people in and more often than not, it ends badly and you are broken for a while. Eventually it all becomes so overwhelming that your mind numbs and you stop feeling altogether.

It seems good for a while, you feel freer than before, but when you stop feeling the good along with the bad. It finally begins to suffocate. It's like all those emotions are building up inside you and there is no way to let them out, because your messed up head stops acknowledging them altogether. It continues to grow like a tumor and takes up all your energy, until you lose the will to do anything. You feel worthless and begin to loose yourself. It is not easy to understand that feeling, if you aren't going through it yourself. That sheer lack of emotions, not just good but bad too, scared you. You feel like you are slowly dying and leaving a shallow corpse behind.

But when you ask for help, no one understands, because it is your fault for listening, when they told you to get over it. Because you know that now you will be a cold hearted person, who will never feel love or show kindness again. It will not be an easy battle, the quest to finding yourself again, but you have a titanium-clad wall now protecting you from further harm, but also preventing you from moving on.

xoxo Cynane

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Fear fear itself

The days we wake up worried and nervous, we know there is something we fear, something we can’t face, something that is a restraint. The fears we never face become our limits. And we all know limits are only meant to be broken, so fears are only meant to be faced. Facing our fears is the first step to becoming warriors. Because fears make us helpless and vulnerable, and getting over those fears help us become brave and strong.

When I say facing our fears, I mean facing them head on. Fighting against them and never ever giving in to the fright. Those who fight only become stronger. Fight to the very end when you can’t stand anymore, and even then fight, because at some point you will win. There is no fight that can’t be won with endurance, strength and strategy.

All I can ask is that you fight the haunts for the fortune of tomorrow.

XOXO Cynane

P.S. Remember ‘fortune favours the brave.’

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She is beauty beyond words...

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This is for all of you out there, with 4 seconds in hand.

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Worried too much...

Hi! It’s been so long, but this pandemic has kept me on my feet. So today I want to write about something I have been facing regularly in my life for the past 3 years or so...anxiety. This is a confession to you and myself. I knew I was soo worried, but was too scared to label it. I have been getting panic attacks and my physical and mental health is very affected. So here goes...

Recently minor things have been triggering it, even if someone looks at me. I know it’s silly, but that’s what makes it so horrid. I want to lock myself up and cry, but I muster a straight face for the people around me.

A few days ago, I had a test and I messed up real bad, though I don’t think it was my fault, though I began to worry and could focus on anything else. So I used the 3-3-3 rule. That means first name three things you see, then three things you hear and move three parts of your body. It really helps me go through life. It has become my remedy to anxiety.

Steps to taking back control-

1. List what worries you, and put it on hold until you are ready, until you have gained enough control, to avoid a negative spiral.

2. Help yourself first. Leave the world behind to pay yourself a little more attention. See your true worth, that is way more than you see.

3. Don’t hide forever. But before you face your worries, equip yourself with ways to regain control, for example the 3-3-3 rule.

4. If you can’t resolve your worries yourself, seek help. It’s okay to reach out to more experienced people for helping us cope.

These steps have proven very effective for me in my life. Of course they require to twirk up for each of us. But I urge you to talk it out, talk your worries. Don’t live with the burden too long it will slow you down.

XOXO Cynane

P.S. Don’t overthink, just live.