I'm feeling a mixture of anxiety and discouragement. It kind of makes me feel bad that I'm feeling this way because it makes me feel as though I'm not trusting in the lord. I know that Matthew 6:34 says not to be anxious or worry about tomorrow but I find it really difficult to shake this feeling. I'm trying not to be anxious but the more I try to fight it the more anxious I feel. I guess it's sorta normal to feel a little anxious about a new semester especially since I'm starting school again since my hiatus. I feel discouraged cause I have yet to find a car. I really didn't care either way whether or not I have a car I'm content with just long boarding everywhere but this winter break my parents have really been pushing buying a car and convincing me that this is something I really need. So I took out a loan and car shopped the entire break. And now I go back to school tomorrow completely carless. I was fine not having a car before but after putting in all this work for one I kinda expected to be driving myself back to school. I feel like I wasted all that time waking up early going from dealer to dealer just to end up with nothing but feeling that way makes me feel bad too. I know that my family and I have been praying for a car so I guess I just have to wait on the right one. My parents said they'll keep looking and drive it down when they buy it but i just really would have rather found one before going back. That way the money's out of my account and I don't have to worry about my spending. But I guess it's all in due time. I suppose patience is a virtue I just hate when I get my hopes up just to be let down that's probably why I rarely let myself get excited about anything. But I'm sure God has a plan so I guess for now I just have to wait and have faith.