The God you think you know is some ridiculous catholic fabrication. God can’t even speak to you unless you’ve come to the understanding that you as a human are an imperfect sinner, and His son’s blood was shed to pay for that. You can commune with Him if you haven’t accepted that. You ask Him into your life and then nothing you do on this earth will take that away. God is not awful and cruel and vindictive. He is generous. He is love. If that’s not the God you know, then you don’t know God.
im not sure if this is trying to be supportive of me or not??? and yes while i do agree that i have an intense layer of catholic paranoia and guilt overlapping my relationship with Him, i meant to make that post about how i see my relationship with G-d, not how it actually may be. i see myself as being punished by G-d- not bullied, not picked on unfairly, but punished for my sins. and yes i realize my sins are very,,,,, vague. my sins are more of very personal and complicated and less of like something you would see on the commandments. im going through a very rough period with religion right now, and my posts are more meant to be a sort of vent of how i view my relationship with not just G-d but all of religion rn.
i could really go into this more but i dont think anyone really needs to hear about my complex relationship with G-d, Jesus, and faith in general. its all super tiring for me and would be dumb and whiny to anyone else. one final thing: dont say i dont know G-d. i may not know your G-d but,,, i know Him. our relationship has its up and downs but yes i do know Him. and i dont think He is cruel or vindictive but i am allowed to argue with Him. im allowed to have a complex and not just hugs and kisses relationship with Him. G-d is allowed to punish me and i am allowed to argue and mourn to him. i know i am seeing Him through a confused teenagers eyes but i am ALLOWED to be upset and have not black and white feelings. the G-d i know now is the most true G-d I have known my entire life. not to be rude but even in my state of limbo (im not Jewish but im also not xtian) i feel closer to Him than i ever did while in the church.
i cant quite read if this message was meant to be kind or not but i took it as being more harsh and trying to tell me what to think than everyone else. you may be trying to encourage me by telling me that G-d is only kind but,,,, G-d is G-d. He has done all of deeds. He is no man to me.
