@apexcommander cont. from here ||
You know the bitter taste of heartbreak with all the familiarity of knuckles against your jaw. Mouth filled with raw blue and the twisted heat of fury in the pit of your gut like a fire trying to force it’s way out of you with no regard to your bones or the shape of your body.
You would rather swallow OCEANS of your own blood then come to terms with what happened with your father. Long years were coiled into the barbed wire around your heart to keep you bitter and vile about it, the only thing that kept you soft, turned your ire into something constructive was Sid. She was your world, without her you’d be heartless. The cavern inside your chest where your heart should be would be flooded with a thick black tar of apathy and cruelty.
But you were not your father. Nor were you your mother. Because of Sid, FOR Sid, you became something greater then the both of them. But none of that eased the sting.
"I want to HATE him, I want to HATE every part of him so damn bad. But I just... can’t. He was all Sid and I had, even if he did leave, at least it FELT like he cared... like he left to protect us or something.”
In a moment of pause your drink is thrown back down your throat and the glass is set with a force on the table, arms finding an agitated rest across your chest while your head dips, as if eye contact would corrode through your skull. As if you weren’t already prying open your ribs to even speak of the matter at length.
“There’s a naive part of me that wants to think he was a good person who loved us and wanted something better for our futures...... It’s the stupid part that keeps me from saying that I hate him.
Pretending that he’s dead just makes it more... digestible.”
Weight, shaken loose from heavily armored shoulders follows the look behind the visor to meet him again, you’ve said more then you needed, a display of emotions spread out on the table. He was surprisingly easy to talk to. A dangerous trait.
“Sounds like you’ve had your own family troubles huh? You said your sister was an artist? Sounds like a nice career.”
