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       i’ve stated this before, but just for some clarification;

       avitus’ tendency to keep his and macen’s relationship quiet stems from a number of issues; the first and foremost being his concern for macen’s safety. when he’d been younger and more reckless in covert missions, he made plenty of enemies. one such enemy made the vague threat that macen would be harmed, and the thought that his partner might be hurt because of his ruthless actions never quite left him. even into his ‘retirement’, he felt a sense of panic when people knew that he and macen were together - to the point where he refused to let himself and macen be affectionate out in public.

       the second reason is that turian culture does not view spectres in high regard. much like garrus talks about his father and how he believed spectres hold too much power and work above the law, spectres are seen as untrustworthy and easy to be corrupted due to their lack of structure and freedom to operate as they please. macen, being only a few people away from becoming primarch in the turian hierarchy, was expected to have the ‘ideal’ turian family - a wife and sons. due to all of these factors, it would have been thought of as a scandal if someone of such high regard such as macen were to enter a relationship with someone thought of as untrustworthy and unsavory as avitus - much less one that would ruin the picture of macen as the iconic turian official with the expected marriage.

       these old stigmas stayed with avitus even to andromeda - where he and macen both believed they could live a fresh start to their relationship and be more open about being together. ( “[macen] said i deserved a life outside of the shadiws.” ) now, it’s merely too painful for avitus to speak of the two of them - it reminds him of what should have been, what macen believed the both of them deserved.

[fightersuggestion]

if i die, i die on my own terms

[spectrepath]

  wow nothing like that homophobia from tumblr automatically marking my posts with the word ‘gay’ as ‘n.sfw’

[seachord]

[spectrepath]

       me, remembering this blog

[turiansloveofmylife-blog]

[saru-studies]

Today I’ve learnt that there’s a word in italian (”solare”) to describe a person who brights the room, who is warm and good and cheerful and worries about others and I think is so cute??? I love it

[avitusxmacen]

macen wakes up after definitely not dying, meets ryder, and learns about what happened to alec. ryder discovers they have two new turian dads whether they or avitus like it or not.

[corasharper]

30 Posts of Mass Effect - Best Antagonist ↳ Saren Arterius

[spectrepath]

   i love my new ryder

[dvoyd]

what doesn’t kill you doesn’t always make you stronger. sometimes it leaves you shattered; broken in a million pieces, and scattered to unforgiving winds in this hurricane of pain that never lets you rest. sometimes it leaves you weaker; hoping for an end that will never come, for a mercy that no amount of prayers can give your dirty, bloodstained soul, because you will never believe you deserve it. sometimes, what doesn’t kill you makes you wish that it did.

when punishment becomes reward | m.a.w (via dvoyd)

[stormcallart]

B5, avitus rix if you're still taking expression prompts?

I WANNA HUG HIM! Look at that faccce~ 

Thank you for the request.

[exaltawakened-deactivated202009]

   i made a thing to celebrate the new patch but also as a fuck you to all the dudebros who won’t shut the fuck up about the fact that scott can date jaal now

[blossomfully]

I’ve been in love with you for so long,“ he says. “How long?” “So long. I can’t remember what not loving you feels like. I can’t even imagine it.”

Sue Zhao (via blossomfully)

[spectrepath]

tiniestflicker:

Shepard had taken down Saren, but that wasn’t the only dead turian Spectre the public could associate with her. It was Nihlus who originally endorsed her into the Spectres at all, and now Nihlus was dead, too - murdered by Saren, which was almost unbelievable to those who knew them both. Both deaths and their connection to her weighed heavily on Jane, especially that she’d seen… she’d seen that it wasn’t Saren, not really. His mind had been taken, and in the last moment… 

Most people believed Jane Shepard killed Saren, but it was not her who pulled the trigger.

Now, as she looked around at the many turians, asari and some salarians, she saw ghosts of both Saren and Nihlus everywhere. Perhaps it was time for a human to be in the Spectres, and yet she couldn’t help but feel that neither the time, nor the circumstances were the right ones.

Jane laughed at the man’s answer, ignoring the doubts about her place in the Spectres. There were enough people here doubting her - she couldn’t afford to be one of them, and if she was, she certainly couldn’t afford others to see it. “That’s one way to look at it. Free food and drinks make a lot of things worth it.” She relaxed - as far as first impressions went, this one was far less hostile than some of the others tonight. “I wouldn’t say it’s only for me, but… yes. I am certainly the newest addition to this club. Jane Shepard.” She figured he might have known that already, but she introduced herself anyway. “Have you been a Spectre for long?”

       "At least someone here has the right idea.” He chuckled again, briefly glancing in Macen’s direction - though he was quick to refocus his attention on the newest Spectre. ‘It’s fine, it’s fine - nothing is going to happen here.’; an mantra he constantly had to repeat in his mind in an attempt to quell his near-constant paranoia.

    “I’m sure they wouldn’t have thrown this together without you, though.”  She seemed amiable and polite - not at all cocky and arrogant like he would have pictured the first human Spectre to be. ( Was he being biased again by automatically assuming that she would be? He didn’t mean to feed into old prejudices. )  “Avitus Rix - nice to meet you.” He gave a courteous nod in recognition and greeting, before recalling the human tradition of a ‘hand shake’, and he offered his hand - albeit awkwardly.

   “Depends what you think a long time is. I’m going on fifteen years now. It’s the best and worst job I’ve ever had.” He attempted to chuckle again, but there was far too much truth in his statement to allow it - in the end his subvocals ended up sounding a bit too distressed and forced. "It’s a tough job. Most people I’ve known can’t handle it, or quit within a few years.” That came out harsher than he’d meant. Small talk was clearly not his strong suit.

     “I’m, uh, sure you’ll be able to handle it, though.” Stopping Saren and his ‘Geth army’ ( Avitus doubted that was the true or full story ) was likely an indicator of the woman’s tenacity. “I heard Nihlus Kryik recommended you to the Council. That’s high praise; I worked with him a couple of times.”

[styliferous]

Commission for @pelor of our favorite Sad Turian Avi, trying to see the stars like Macen did :’) 

The constellation behind him is Eridanus- which is “connected to the myth of Phaethon, who took over the reins of his father Helios’ sky chariot but didn’t have the strength to control it and so veered wildly in different directions, scorching both Earth and heaven.” It seemed fitting, given what happened to the Turian ark!