a party isn’t where she should be, but a party is where she is.
and there’s nothing else that she can say about it. the friend that yongsun is relying on for now is at the party and so she too, must tag along even though there’s so many more important things that she should be, could be doing. in the midst of a group of people, she wears a smile but thinks about the way she’s sleeping on a couch and trying not to think of the way flames look when they swallow the walls.
it’s easier when people talk to her. in this way, yongsun can at least pretend that her fingers aren’t curling in all of the worries that make her shoulders feel a little heavy - it’s a little easier to show her friends the side of herself that they want to see. a party is a party, isn’t it? yongsun isn’t one to ruin the mood; she’s just the nice girl in the corner with the smile on and the drink in her hand that she’s barely sipped from.
even she doesn’t feel like herself, but no one seems to be paying attention.
a nail taps gently at the side of the bottle she holds in her hands; yongsun barely notices it when her friend slips in beside her only to have her wrap an arm around her shoulder. it makes her jump, pulled from her thoughts as she is and finally, she smiles again with kindness in her eyes. “ are you ready to go?” yongsun tries to hide the hope in her voice, doesn’t really mind the people milling about or think that they can hear her trapped in their party mood as they are. “ i still have to see what i can salvage from the fire.”
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