Jul 17, 2017
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❝ ——– so uh, am i the only one from the team that’s in your crisis drawings? have you drawn flash? or ned? ❞
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@arelosers liked.
❝ ——– so uh, am i the only one from the team that’s in your crisis drawings? have you drawn flash? or ned? ❞
last breath
during the fight, her mind had been everywhere. to the inhuman she was fighting, to michelle who was hiding nearby, to all of the people who might be hiding in the neighboring buildings. this was FAR MORE than spider-woman could handle but she also couldn’t simply walk away because it was too much. the public was counting on her to keep them all safe and she’d made a vow to them. god, she’d made a vow to michelle when they first became friends to always be there for her, to make sure that nothing bad would ever happen as long as they were friends. and, even though she didn’t tell her best friend this, it also included dying to be sure that mj lived on.
she’d rushed to get a kid inside one of the buildings, wanting to ensure he was not injured by the blasts from her enemy. but with her back turned to it all, jessica failed to see the other approach michelle’s hiding place. as she spun around, everything dove into slow motion. the girl began to run, jumping over debris and trying her best to get there. but there was no time to push her friend out of the way, pull her out of the way, push her enemy away...god, there was only one choice. and so she sped up and jumped in front of her best friend.
the blast was burning and threw her back into a nearby building, causing all air to escape the girl. immediately pain began to travel through her body and she could tell...
THIS WAS THE END.
jessica raised her hand and fired one blast, the rest of her power and strength and energy at her enemy. it sent them reeling into another building and killed them. she didn’t like killing but she had to do something. after all, she was dying. before she knows it there are familiar arms around her and jessica just cannot help the tears that begin to flow. “ c-careful...don’t get blood on you. ” she murmurs in a low voice, looking to the wound in her stomach. the last thing she wanted for michelle was for her to go home with her dead friend’s blood upon it. there is so much that she wants to say but she has little to no time to do so and she can’t stop CRYING from both the pain and the realization that these were her last moments. but at least they were with her friend. NO. her family.
“ michelle, i...i’m sorry. i couldn’t get there fast enough. ” the blood by now has reached her lips and she can taste the metal hints in it, can feel the liquid as it moved down her chin. “ i told you i...i would protect you. now you have to protect yourself. and- ” jessica stops for a moment and lets out a hoarse cough, followed by a groan of pain, “ i need you to protect new york. our rock in the park, under it is some s-stuff i got. for you. i need you....i need you to be spider-woman. ”
she presses her forehead gently to her friends, mutters a quick ‘i love you’ to her and then comes the grasp of death. she tries to keep breathing, to stick around for a little longer, but the life is drained from her body. soon jessica lies in her best friend’s arms, limp and gone. her life she had been made to be a villain for so long, but at least- to her friend- she died a HERO.
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DEAR MICHELLE ( for when things won’t stop going wrong ),
001. i will always believe in you. even after everything that has happened, there’s not a lot of things i regret … but i do wish somehow, some way we had become closer sooner. even in our short time as friends, i still managed to see a light in you, michelle. leaving is going to be hard, however i am truly trying to take the good with the bad so as to learn any & all valuable lessons i can from this. even so, i i’m aware that when crappy thing after crappy thing happens, that can be hard to both stick to & remember. honestly, i’m sorry you feel you have come to a point in which you’ve resorted to reading this because (presumably) things aren’t currently going right for you. but, you know what i say in this time of hardship ? think of your life like your own personal novel - you can change & mold your course as you choose. only you have the power to do that. & hey, without conflict there wouldn’t be a story, right ? so make it one worth reading ! i believe in you & your power to change what’s going on for the better. p.s. i would apologize for the extremely nerdy book metaphor, but i couldn’t help myself. ☺
002. don’t let anyone underestimate you. you are one of the most intriguing people i’ve ever met. i know at a time like this there’s probably even more going on in your head than usual, so i’m asking that you take the time to reach out. to me, to the decathlon team, to anyone. i assure you that doing so will not make anyone perceive you as any less. i already know how strong you are, and i’ll bet they do too. you have started to let everyone see what i see – a girl with heart, & promise, & the world in the palm of her hands. continue to fight for what you believe in even when things get rough, michelle. throughout the time i’ve known you, you have always stuck to your guns. i admire that. continue to kick major ass – if there’s anyone i’m sure can make the best of any situation solely with her intelligence & heart of gold, it’s you.
003. use that beautiful mind of yours to your advantage. i’d like to think that, from every one of those books you read, you gain a valuable lesson. whether the lesson is profound or entirely lackluster, it’s a lesson nonetheless. hopefully you learn more about yourself post - all of this. but remember: life is a series of peaks & valleys. everything that’s going wrong is eventually bound to lead to everything going right. there’s no one more equipped to make that happen for themselves than you. trust me when i say that in this time of hardship, you will trumph !!p.p.s. brighter days are just around the corner. please text me or call me whenever necessary, okay ? even if not “ necessary “ ! i’ll always be happy to hear from you. ♡
with all my love & all my support, elizabeth allan.
“SOOO ARE YOU SAYING THAT we’re friends now?? because i would just like to say that i am a very high-maintenance friend who needs attention and reassurance at all times.”
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“you are that girl who draws people in crisis?” an amused smile graced her lips as she looked at the girl. “that is what i’ve heard. that, and a few other things.” wondering how michelle would react to that, pepper made no attempt to sound obtrusive in any way.
“ you are my BEST FRIEND, my human diary, and my other half. you mean the world to me. i love you. ”
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❝ i don’t want to feel this way about anyone else. ❞ ow
michelle’s WORDS make him stop, back to her but still VISIBLY tense. peter’s not sure what she WANTS him to say, how he’s supposed to FEEL. granted, HE was the one who had walked away, who’d CRACKED, but it wasn’t her fault. he was STUCK in his head again, something that happened FAR too often, something that was RUINING his chances, it seemed. anytime he started FEELING something, especially something as INTENSE as this, it SCARED him. especially when it came to people who KNEW him, who he TRUSTED. she was ONE of those people, &. peter didn’t know what to DO.
his HEART, which spoke LOUDLY as of late, was prompting him to take a CHANCE, to be OPEN &. honest with her, about EVERYTHING he was keeping from just about EVERYONE. but he COULDN’T. everytime he TRIED, the words were stuck in his throat or it was never the RIGHT time. he was running OUT of right times, out of TIME in general. she cared about HIM, about PETER PARKER, &. he needed to ACCEPT that. michelle was his FRIEND before she figured out his SECRET. that didn’t CHANGE. so maybe he should START being honest with himself.
slowly, PAINFULLY slowly, he turns to face her, grip on his backpack strap TIGHT &. head lowered. his heart was beating PAINFULLY behind his ribs, like a bird FUTILELY wanting to escape its CAGE. he wondered if michelle NOTICED his hands were trembling when he closed the DISTANCE between them, taking one of her hands &. HOLDING it in an attempt to ground himself.
❝ listen.....i...i should apologize. i....i’ll admit i’ve kinda.....kinda been avoiding you. i’m...i’m not great with feelings, especially not....ones like this. i wanted to...to push you away, i just....it’s weird. i like you....like, really like you. and it was easier to pretend you didn’t ?? no, that’s not right, i just.... ❞
the hand ONCE white-knuckled around the STRAP on his shoulder now RAKES through his hair, exhaling SHAKILY. the MINUTE it dawned on him that she might feel the SAME about him, peter had gone LOOKING for reasons to believe it wasn’t REAL. he was AFRAID, if he were being HONEST. it SCARED him to think that someone could make him FEEL so strongly, that one PERSON could have so much POWER over him. he didn’t LIKE that.
but....her feelings were JUST as real as his, he’d finally CONCLUDED. &. QUIETLY, he raises his gaze to meet MICHELLE’S, eyes, his own WATERING from the painful knot of FEAR sitting in his stomach &. how it made his CHEST tighten painfully. no matter WHAT, after this moment, they could NEVER be just friends. everything would be DIFFERENT. they could be an ALMOST. or it could be something REAL. peter couldn’t STAND another almost, it’d be too PAINFUL.
when he FINALLY finds his voice again, it’s full of EMOTION, raw &. unsheltered. inside his heart was a HURRICANE, a storm too DANGEROUS to be released. &. so it had GROWN &. damaged HIM instead, remembering far to many NIGHTS reeling from the breakdowns, reeling from all of the ANXIETY &. FEAR &. PAIN &. SHAME he carried every day. it was a burden, one only HE knew the full weight of, one that NO ONE would be able to understand unless they EXPERIENCED it. that was a fate peter would wish on NO ONE, not even an ENEMY. as he SPOKE, it seemed as though a DAM had broken within him as sadness CRACKED his voice &. he CRIED, for the first time in a LONG time.
❝ i was scared. i mean....i am scared. like....a lot. i’m not...i’m not good at making friends, i-i’m not popular o-or.....or anything like that. but you-you’re my friend and i-i didn’t want to lose you, michelle. i....i realized a long time ago that i like you. i-i mean, that’s the whole re-reason i kissed you. i was scared of trusting someone, and it’s such a stupid excuse but-but i just...i can’t ever let my guard down and-and-and.....and i was afraid you’d think i-i...i was pathetic. i-i’m sorry. i-i really like you, a-and i don’t....i-i’ve never felt like this about anyone else, not..not even about liz. a-and i don’t want to, either. ❞