Sep 28, 2011
Slowly he's making me believe once again...
and it feels amazing.
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Slowly he's making me believe once again...
and it feels amazing.
No more love in my heart will remain, never again will I be so decieved.
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arhagedmind:
not many appreciate the sweet melodies.
Anti-social.
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1. he's waited for me since we were 12.
2. he'd forever flirt with me.
3. tried everything to catch my eye.
4. made sure to always find a way to see me.
5. has taken the metro, bus to my house, which took a good 4 hours.
6. walked the streets at night to just see me in the morning.
7. would come to my one hour lunch break at work to just hang out with me, then leave back home on the metro for another 4 hours.
8. wrote me letters, constantly telling me he loves me, reminds me how beautiful i am to him.
9. puts everyone below me, because i'm his first priority.
10. does whatever he can to just text or call me everyday. even if it means to sneak around.
11. has cooked, and done my laundry.
12. paid for every date we've been on.
13. makes sure, i'm happy.
14. always always always, makes sure to put a smile on my face.
15. has cried in front of me.
16. wants something serious with me. he's set that line straight.
17. dealt with my verbal abuse, never once at any point disrespecting me after or during it.
18. has prayed for our relationship to be true.
19. always runs after me when we argue and i walk away.
20. always calls back when i hang up.
21. deals with my harsh jokes.
22. constantly apologizes for not being around when i mostly need him.
23. never compares me with anyone else.
24. constantly reminds me, how he'd never change a single strand of hair on my head when i'm often criticizing myself.
25. i can feel his heart pound so hard in his chest when he holds me.
26. is proud to hold, cuddle, kiss me in front of whomever.
27. sees my every flaw as the "cutest" thing.
28. isn't afraid to tell me his feelings.
29. when we're at a party, and i'm done eating or if i'm hungry, he always gets up to throw away my trash or get me something to eat.
30. has proven to me, he's more than in love with me.
I say this not to brag or put anyone down but just to show, when a man really loves a women he'll do the impossible to show and remind her he does. no girl deserves no less than this.
i know i'm not the greatest, most affectionate girlfriend. i've held my guards up around my heart, pushing out anyone who'd want to anymore than i could allow. you can say i tested him for a while. being mean and pushing him away, but he accepted the challenge of breaking my walls down and proving to me, he's sincere and damn sure he's worth giving a chance at winning my heart. you can say, slowly but surely, this guy is definitely winning me over completely. <3
The only way to stop yourself from drowning is to let go of the anchors that keep you from flying.
alwaysmoveon&letgo.
This long distance is draining me.
Passed few days I've literally been down in the dumps. Doubting, crying, sobbing, thinking what if's and buts. Though, I'm aware this is the lifestyle I chose to live by- being patient and always being there for him no matter what. I will say it is very draining. It's very hard to witness other couples grow closer day by day. With just doing the most ordinary things life can be like- baking cookies, going shopping, movies, PAINT BALLING, helping our mum's cook dinner. Simple ordinary things that don't really mean much to anyone but to just know he's there, is a very comforting feeling. As our story goes, we were on and off up until the last 3 days he had before leaving to boot camp. Since then the only time we've seen each other has been during his 10 days boot leave. Which was in August. Even then, time felt so limited. Everyone wanted to see him, spend time with him. I didn't mind. On the contrary, I wanted him to spend as much time as he could with his family because their so close to him, as well as he is to them. Now though, I'd wish I'd taken better advantage of the normal days we had.
How I miss those days when he was just the ordinary guy, I'd avoid because we all knew he liked me. Jk. I just wish we had more time to become one. I feel like once I was allowing myself to be happy, he gets sent away for God knows how long, now. Sigh. We all knew it'd be this way, just now I wish, I could curl up next to him and just read him a story for him to fall asleep to beside me. Nothing more.
On the bright side to this.... I hopefully, if all works out... I get to see him next week when he graduates SOI. 12 more days to go. c: