Congratulations, Im broken.. hearted..
Whats up everybody, today im barely getting by..
Barely getting there.. trying to forget him for what hes done and everything that happened between us. It wasnt easy, esp when youve been together for a long time and youve got too many too many memories together. Fucking breaks me each time I think about it. Oh well..
So today, I stayed at home all freakin day. Accomplished none. Productivity zeroooo. Eehhh. I guess this is how it works yall. Been incognito for i-dont-know-how-long but surely it was a pretty long time.. but who cares. This is my life. Pretty boring but im sure ill be fine.
Healing from this wasnt as easy as I thought. I hope there will be some clarity from what happened. Some communication would be great but definetely not coming from me. I should be mad in the first place because he left me with someone else over a silly argument that we had. He had enough maybe that led him to choose someone else, cant blame him, hes always been not very good with decisions and life in general... Anyways.. Ive already made a decision not to chase him. I wont ever let him come in to my life again. Never again. He wasted our 8 year relationship over stupid things.
Ive learned my lessons, maybe he did learned his as well, so will see if he made the right choice. I wont be waiting, I wont be stupid enough to fall for him again. Im never going to give any more chances.. Yes, I can be stubborn just like that. But I have forgiven him, I even txted him days ago how I felt and that we should both move on.