"There he goes... one of god's own prototypes. A high powered mutant of some sort, never even considered for mass production. Too wierd to live, to rare to die." I try to live by this Hunter S. Thompson quote, as much as I can. And when I die I want to have lived a life worthy of having it on my gravestone. There was a time when I wouldve changed "he" to "she" and dedicated it to some beautiful creature I was musing over... But part of the radical self love and empower practice I've been undergoing in the wake of massive changes in my life lately, is reclaiming my art, my intention, my attention, and the romance and poetry I have often dedicated to the worship of others, and focusing it on self actuation. So today, this. I came across this sketch yesterday that I made about a year ago, (and am so grateful to my then partner for saving and posting, and reflected on it. I sketched it, as I often do, in a moment of stress. when it comes at me hard emotionally, and I am stretched really thin and threaten to be lost in the shuffle, I find it therapeutic to remind myself who I am. "Armor on" is the quote I tell myself; when the storm begins, time to form ranks, pull the little ones close and bristle the spines. and it has been the inspiration for many a self portrait, many of my demons and oni masks I've come up with, much of my best art. I looked in the mirror recently and cracked up at how much I look like that sketch today, How fully I've begun to evolve into this idealized version of myself. I want to share 2 thoughts with people who might find themselves in similar situations. 1) vision boards WORK. 2)Moreover, you CAN recreate yourself in your own image. Unknown to many, last year this time started the worst heartbreak in a lifetime of heart breaks. At the very lowest point I've been in years, i felt so broken I did not think I could continue with any of the things i was doing. But I did. Although ive kept my head up, kept positive, and focused on the Joy's and labors of life, These past several months have been full of pain. of separation, of growth, and of evolution. 2019 I'm letting the last of it go. Armor the fuck on. #armoron https://www.instagram.com/p/BrkB4kilwX3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1bhdj3nliramw
