#armsjet

[goodbirb]

jaclyn for playlist thing !

j - jam jam - seventeen

a - aerodynamic - daft punk

c - cat’s eyes - astro

l - lion heart - snsd

y -  you’re the best - mamamoo

n - neo blue breathing - free!es

[tantoknives]

what's your favorite flower? favorite cactus?

ohh goodness i love roses! i know its romantic and cliché but they smell so wonderful and they’re so useful and taste and lovely and ahh i love them so much i would love to have my own rose bushes!

and ahh, ive never really thought about favorite cactus tbh??i guess i would have to say the schlumbergera, or the christmas cactus!

[thriftedcardigan]

So I found this REALLY cool Victorian style photo album at a thrift store that's super sturdy and has really pretty art of flowers to frame photos on each page of it and I feel like it's something you would love

that is something i would love yes!!!!! gosh

[aceaster]

A, D, Q!

gonna assume these were for the personal questions one sorry

A: Who was the last person to piss you off? What did they do?

oh ahaaa i’m not going to go into intense detail (because there is A LOT behind this story) but the last person to truly piss me off was my last boss. 

he decided to demote me so he wouldn’t have to pay me as much money, then expected me to keep doing everything i was doing when i was in that role (so basically to kill myself running a section for less money - and i wasn’t getting paid a lot to begin with. just a dollar/hr more than the regular wait staff). he didn’t tell anyone what he did so i had the pleasure of explaining to everyone that i wasn’t their manager anymore. he then got pissed off with me when the deli’s profits and organisation went down despite it being his immediate decision to have me work in that section for just two days a week (and those two days it did well?? ?). 

so i ended up leaving. i go away for a week. i ring my roomie after receiving a really shocking text to find her in a state because HE FIRED HER BECAUSE HE DIDN’T LIKE THE GOODBYE LETTER I LEFT HIM. because apparently she told me to write it and give it to him since she couldn’t. because i CAN’T THINK FOR MYSELF. 

oh and he made all the changes and did all the things i told him to do in the letter after he did so.

so you know

fuck that guy. 

D: Everyone has a few demons, what’s your worst one?

i’ve never really thought about it. it’s probably my crippling sense of self-doubt and strict self assessment.

Q: Do you prefer peace and quiet, or loud chaos?

a little bit of a and a little bit of b... i can’t stand too much of one or the other, but a healthy balance of both makes me a happy chappie~ 

[tantoknives]

what are the essays like? are they long or just annoying research/format style. and ahhh you're powering through so hang in there!! once you get past midterms it'll go by much quicker and won't feel as stressful. <3 <3

theyre fairly long, always at least five pages in length- 1,500 words, which isn’t terrible but on tedious essays like these it feels like i’m trying to write a damn anthology on the subject.

but ahh gosh ive been trying, i really have.. its just like sometimes its discouraging bc my family doesn’t always act like what i’m doing is actually work or anything like that, so theyre like ‘ohh you’re not busy do this do that’ when they don’t bug my biochem sister about anything

idk its just.. frustrating y’know?? but thank you so so much for the messages theyre so kind!!

[tantoknives]

eugh jeez how many classes are you taking? I know it's about midterm time atm so I know it's extra sucky now but it'll pass. Stay strong and take mini breaks when you can!! You could try making a checklist too? Can sometimes help you tackle things one at a time and feel better as you check things off.

i’m taking three, the other two aren’t as bad, except in my humanities class we have to read a ridiculous amount of text and whew boy are the essays annoying. but goodness thank you so much for your concern, i can’t believe i only have 8 weeks left of foundations hell

its been the fuckin worst. they work you to death hhhah

but gosh thank you for being a comfort, i really appreciate it

[tantoknives]

what's been happening with college? you doing ok?

its just been 

terribly overwhelming tbh

like i’ll start one thing and try to work on it the best i can but then something else comes up and everything is incredibly hard to juggle and manage and i barely have time to relax and when i try to people nag at me so

it’s just

hard

also ive been breaking out really bad lately from something and its stressing me out even more

[ifyouarereadingthis]

1, 5, 8, 11!

Sorry it took so long to publish this. It was a real thinker.

1. The first time I watched my favorite movie, which at the moment is About Time, I was about 2 weeks into the worst case of strep throat I’d ever had. It was crazy bad but Laura was taking care of me and I was pretty doped up on pain meds but I wanted to watch a movie. She put it on and I watched so intently because I was enjoying it so much. I cried like a baby at the end.

5. The best birthday I’ve had was this year, my 21st. It was super low key. I hung out with my sister and my best friend who had recently moved away but came back to see me. We went to my first bar, played pool, and hung out. It was nice just hanging out to people I really care about and I know care about me.

8. The thing I’m most proud of would have to be my job and school. After I graduated high school I fell into a slump when I didn’t get to go to my dream college. I lazed around for a couple years feeling worthless because I wasn’t accomplishing anything. Then I got a wake up call and snapped myself out of it. I applied to a community college and my sister got me an interview at the place she works at. I’m now only 1 semester away from transferring to that same dream school and I have certified in all but two positions at my job.

11. I actually don’t tend to remember my dreams unless they’re nightmares or about zombies. I know I dream but they don’t stay in the ol’ memory banks for very long. I can tell you about the dream I had last night though. I was a special ops military whatever guy whose team got dropped into an enemy base at night because we were going to infiltrate it or whatever. Our team was small and their numbers were big. In the end we defeated the enemy because we were all fighting with Nerf guns and I was the only one smart enough to pick up darts that had already been fired.