#aromantic todoroki

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To the anon who asked me about AroAce Todoroki this morning (and anyone interested): I'm informing you that the small thingie i wrote is now living in my brain and it's growing, so good news and bad news.

Good news, this means I'll write more AroAce Todoroki, and we love representation <3

Bad news, now i have a blank document called "I promise you I'll be better (I promise you I'll try)" so... angst is coming (Who knows when though, i need to finish Apple Tree first)

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please god i am begging u if u have any more aro content to share please do bc aro!shouto is one of my favorite headcannons ever and i am so starved for aro rep TT-TT

Ask and you shall receive.

So... I'm not sure what this is, I'm tired, so it's kind of rambly, but I hope you like it? I'll probably come back later and write more AroAce Todoroki, but in the meantime, have this.

Momo is the first one to konw, after they move to the dorms.

It isn't really that he tells her, and more that she's one of the smartest people he knows, and she's kind, so when he notices that everyone seems to like people in a different way than him, when he sees his classmates, his friends blush and stutter, he goes to her for help.

(It took him a while to realize that when his classmates made comments about girls, or boys, or both (No one seemed very picky, except Mineta, but he hardly counted) they were serious)

He doesn't understand why she seems so embarrassed to talk about it, he knows that attraction is a thing that exists, of course, but he also never thought much about it, and now it seemed like he was the only one. It wasn't like he someone to ask about those things.

It's a little embarrassing to admit that he's never been around a loving couple, Fuyumi is always engrossed in her work, and while Natsuo has mentioned a girl or two from his university, it's never been more than a passing comment

(He's had the talk before, he reassures her, both his father and his siblings had made sure to give it to him as soon as he hit puberty, but his parents were the perfect example of how you didn't need love or even attraction to have a child. He doesn't mention that part, Midoriya always got this sad look when he did, and he didn't want to make Momo sad)

In the end she doesn't really clarify anything for him, and he leaves with as many questions as before.

He still doesn't get why Kaminari short circuits sooner after talking to that one 1-C student, or why Bakugou's performance lowers when he's fighting Kirishima. He thinks ge gets why Uraraka blushes when she's partering with Midoriya or Asui, but not why she lets that distract her during hero training. He feels like he should, but also the idea of letting a physical reaction hinder his training like that sounds stupid (Momo says he's being a little cynical, he doesn't underestand why)

He tries not to let it bother him. He underestands attraction, even if he doesn't feel it, he knows what it means to find someone "hot", or "cute", his brother always quick to try to explain, but romantic feelings? Those are confusing, and no matter what he looks for, what he reads, how many people he asks, everyone seems to have a different answer, and it still doesn't sound like anything he's felt before.

It takes Sero loudly giving a presentation to a tied up Mineta for him to find the word, to hear that maybe he doesn't need to underestand.

Aromantic, the lack of romantic attraction.

He goes back to Momo's room that afternoon, asks her shyly if she'd help him research, and she lits up like every other time someone asks her for help, that need of reassurance that she's useful (It saddens him, how he can see himself reflected in that, younger and overwhelmed with the need to please his father, and thinks that maybe, if he felt those kinds of things, he'd feel them for her)

They spend hours googling and reading and researching, sitting on Momo's gigantic bed side by side, talking in hushed tones about the words on the screen.

And it doesn't fix everything, giving it a name, it doesn't stop him from feeling excluded sometimes, when he hears his classmates talking, like there's some inside joke, some reference he doesn't get, it doesn't stop the voice inside his head (that sounds so much like his father), from telling him that he's different, but it makes it easier, and when Momo gives him a keychain later that week, a flying bird in shades of green and grey, he smiles.

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More AroAce Todoroki angsty headcanons because I'm projecting.

He doesn't really understand why everyone in his year seems so obsessed with romance

The boys chat about people they've seen that they find attractive in the locker rooms, and he's hearing the girls talking about who would make a cute couple in his year, and at first he's just confused

But then he starts spending more time with his classmates in the dorms, and it doesn't feel like anything different than what they've always done? But he hears Mina saying that he and Momo look cute together, and Hagakure mention that he's really close to Midoriya, and he doesn't really know why that makes him uncomfortable, but it does

And then there's the jokes about the time he spends talking with Momo over tea, the teasing about that time he fell asleep on Midoriya in the common room.

And it's easier to just, stop. Distance himself, spend more time alone like he did before. Because the other option is bringing up how the comments make him uncomfortable, when instead he can just, eliminate the factors that make it happen in the first place, because everyone gets those jokes, and no one said anything, so maybe he's wrong? Maybe he's blowing things out of proportion? Being overly sensitive? Maybe if he doesn't give them reasons to think he's flirting or interested in anyone, they'll drop it, and the heavy, painful feeling in the middle of his chest will stop

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ANGST TIME

Aromantic Asexual Todoroki Shoto who looks around in his first, second year of highschool, and sees his friends flirting, talking about girls, about boys, and thinks that his father abuse broke something in him, because no matter how much he looks at people he doesn't see the same thing, he can't .

But he tries anyways, because he's already had so much trouble forming friendships, so maybe if he forces this, he'll get there too, right?

So he doesn't say anything, even when he stares a little too hardly on someone's direction and his classmates joke he has a crush, or when they tell him that he and Momo would make a cute couple, or him and Midoriya, and ignores the painful, heavy feeling in his chest because maybe, if he just let's it happen, if he just plays along, maybe he'll find someone, right? Maybe he's not broken, he's not wrong