Good Intentions. Road to Hell. That Sort of Thing.
This is actually about the concept of the Artist's Date, but hold up a minute and let me get to that:
I've been suckered into taking over my daughter's Girl Scout troop, which is to say that no one held a gun to my head and I accepted readily and actually wanted to, but I also want to hide from the world like Jo March, eating bushels of apples and crying over novels in the attic. Sadly, Jo's way does not pay bills nor does it increase my real-world experience with other humans, which I've noticed actually has a positive effect on my writing.
It's not that I don't love humanity, I do. It's people I usually hate.
It was genuinely my intention to update this blog everyday and do it with insights and all that. But it didn't turn out like Field of Dreams, you know, where I reserve the blog URL and then the amazing insights just show up. Cuz insights don't show up like that, outta nowhere. Or at least, mind don't. Not when I'm not doing the dishes.
I've been doing a lot of wishing lately, as I travel under trains or see the first star of the night. I'm not supposed to tell you what I wish for, because allegedly that cancels out the wish, but it's not working anyway so I'm going try the Fake-It-Till-You-Make-It approach and tell you: I've been wishing for the stories to return. The problem with my life right now is that it's gotten so left-brain that my right brain has gone back to entertaining itself without me. I am awash in ideas and bereft of follow-through, because my left brain is so well fed its able to shout down my right now. Or rather again. I keep going through this.
You know what I'm getting at, right? The Judge in my head, who tells you the story is going stupidly and your characters are shallow and no one wants to read this crap anyway and why don't you get a real job?
I did the Artists Way waaaaaayyyyy back in the day, and it didn't really work, except to instill in me the need to dump my brain of crap on a regular basis and the idea of the Artists' Date. I did a couple of them but never got past the "I'm wasting my time with this" phase of it. Or maybe that's what it always feels like? Maybe I don't know how or when to do it right. I mean, yes of course I get the mechanics of setting aside time and all that shit. But this is really where my left brain has to step up to the plate and help organize my time so that I can. And this is hard, because like most moms whose SO's don't get it, mine isn't all that supportive and tends to resent my wanting to spend copious amounts of time at the computer, appearing to be doing nothing productive when I could be cuddling on the couch. It's worse that Mr Word has a pile of self-published friends, and worth noting that those self-published friends are not mothers and not mothers of school-aged children whose spouses are also chronically ill. I have explanations, you know.
Anyhoo, anybody else do Artists' Dates? Have any luck with them, or maybe they didn't help after all? I'm just curious.