Am I Okay?...Yep. Maybe.
Its unclear if it's the birth control im on, my bipolarism, OCD or....
Actually, you know what, it's a fuck soup of fucked up problems! 😆
From having a dead twin flame to not being able to take a proper shit. Yes im backed up and its my fault for not drinking enough water.
Oh and all the doom and gloom in the news and social media. That's another shit soup served fresh and hot all over your lap. Rude.
Idk I'm fine or at least this is as good as its gonna get.
My disability hearing is on the 1st so that's one anxiety, and I have another lawyer helping me with my last employer in Texas who fails at doing what's legal. I'm just so tired. Like, if I get approved for disability with my lawyer, it just might be the best thing to happen to me in my life and this year. Fuck everything, in spite of everything going on right now, this is a great year for me. That should say something!
Considerably better than being homeless, in and out of hospitals, being stranded pretty much through Texas, living with a bunch of neurotic women with baby daddy issues, a racist old black lady that beat me up...I can go on but I know nobody gives a fuck about what I say so...
Anyway, I've not been talking to Erik much lately.
Mostly because it's painful and I have enough crap to deal with. I have to keep reminding myself im okay throughout the day and remember those defining dreams I've had about Erik (before I knew who he was) and the fact even on meds I am still "psychic", don't believe me? I do free readings on my other blog...So im not as crazy as I think I am about 80% of the time.
I have to keep myself busy. Any free time and my mind does some sideways bullshit like the old man from the six flags commercial.
Check this out...
I live in Tacoma Washington, my twin flame is dead and I can see and talk to him. Lump in the creepy fact my twin flame closely resembles Christian Grey. If you don't believe me I can send you a comparison shot even though it kills me inside to look myself. So umm....My life is like a shitty sci fi novel.
Buuuuut...Im not pretty, I have health issues, I suck at everything, I curse all the time regardless of where I am because old habits, I love my cat more than myself, I watch old anime, my glasses are thick, my music taste is 1975 to 2000s and I fart way too fucking much. I don't how Rick still has a nose at this point.
😘❤ stay safe and all that.
