Asher,
Look, we’re friends. We’re very close friends and I therefore don’t know how to tell you this. I am not very good at expressing my emotions or trusting people with any of them in general, but I guess some people could say that I fancy you. Who am I kidding? I DO fancy you. I know that you still love December and writing this is pretty stupid, but I don’t think I can deny my feelings any longer. Not that very many people would agree I have feelings. Not that you actually know I do.. UGH! This is so frustrating. I’m sorry about the scratches in the parchment; I press my quill too hard when I get nervous.
Look, basically, there are a lot of things that I need to tell you. I’m not who you know me as. I like to think that I am a lot sweeter than I act, in fact, I know I am. You don’t know what has happened to me in my past and I have made it a specific point to keep it from you; but those damned muggles who birthed me, they did things. They abandoned me. I know it doesn’t seem like a horrible thing to you, but a girl needs her parents. Anyway, I’m veering off topic here. But that, my past.. it has made me mistrustful of people. Regardless, you are still always on my mind.
I just don’t know how to say it any differently, any better. I care.
Arie.
