#ask marshy

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3, 11 and 24 for the LGBT questionnaire thing

3. how long have you been aware of your sexuality/gender?my sexuality, i started to explore online and look up other sexualities maybe my sophomore year of highschool, when i realized my attraction to girls along with boys. as for my gender, i felt something was up in maybe 8th grade or freshmen year, but i only discovered terms that made sense to me maybe my junior year of highschool.

11. tell us about your first crush?the first crush i can remember was in 1st grade with this boy name brian. I remember we got along well and i thought he was cute. oddly enough he fell off the face of the earth after that year, and i found him again at my highschool as a junior. i was shook, not that im still interested in him at all but it was just weird seeing my first crush grown up haha

24. how do you feel about the term “queer” ?I like it. i approve of the idea that we should reclaim it, mainly beaucse i think it can be a general umbrella term that applies to sexuality and gender. It also releases me from using the “gay” as a general term, because im not a homosexual male, and “queer” doesnt suggest that. 

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Hydrangea, Marigold, Azalea

HYDRANGEA: Starbucks order?

Venti Strawberry Acai with light ice ;) 

MARIGOLD: Do you listen to what’s on the radio?

I switch between like 3 pop stations and 1 rap station, but usually i just use my aux cord

AZALEA: What’s a movie you cried while watching?

i think i cried the worst in Thor: Dark Worlds, Loki is my fav character it made me so sad

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Stars!

Stars: What are your favorite blogs?

@setheverman @perks-of-being-chinese @m-icoo

i dont have like main favorites but looking through my blog, i reblog from these guys a lot haha

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I had forgotten all about the hedgehog thing. Now it's seared into my mind again. Cursed indeed.

i'm sorry to have reminded you of it

though at the same time i feel like it something we shouldn't forget

there's a hedgehog out there pre created with most of our names

bless

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63: What was the last movie you saw?

in theaters, it was Why Him?

but movies in general, last night i rented and watched Mike and Dave Need Wedding Dates at my house with a few friends

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115

115: Ever made out with just a friend?

nope, i can honestly say i haven't

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Chocolates, cheesy pick-up lines, candle light

Chocolates: What's your favorite kind of sweet thing?

im not big on sweets, i prefer sour or spicy foods, but if i had to pick a favorite i guess i really like it when specific fruits are really sweet. otherwise sweets actually tend to give me a headache or make me feel sick.

Cheesy Pick-Up Lines: Are you more of a comic or a romantic?

is this specific to pickup lines? i like genuine romantic ones but im definitely more of a comic in my opinion.

Candlelight: What romantic cliché do you wish for most?

god the only cliche that comes to mind is a stargazing date. just laying out under the stars together on a blanket and looking at the stars while trying to grab hands or laying on each others chest and talking about anything to everything.

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okay a Chimera holding a rose while a phoenix is flying in the sky...

sounds like you were going to tell me a story about them… im assuming thats not why you were writing though and that this for the ask prompts ?

Chimera: What’s your ideal version of yourself?

my ideal self is confident, unafraid and unaffected by whether or not people care for me.i want my confidence and courage to not only be strongest when i’m protecting or caring for others, but when i need to do the same for myself. That me loving and caring for everyone doesn’t also become my weakness. ideally i have my anxiety under control so that i can live and love in peace.that im out and have enough self love to not be tied down by whether or not im accepted. preferably, I love myself enough to be unswayed by the opinions of others and walk through my life being able to consider myself important. my ideal version of myself is full of self love and over flowing to the point where my love for others is strong and undeniable, and i’m unafraid to speak my mind and/or depend on those who support and care for me.

ROSE: Are you currently in love with someone?

yeah i’d say i am.

(There were 2 pheonix questions so ill just answer both)

Phoenix: If you could redo something, what would it be?

i cant think of one solo thing to redo. most interactions im in with people i always want to redo. i overthink and regret most interactions out of anxiousness, but i dont know. the way i see it, i do things the way i do because they felt right or because in that moment i wasnt alright enough or thinking enough to do better. I dont have the confidence to say if i redid something now, that it’d be done right. 

phoenix: do you like hot weather? 

i love it. i prefer it over cold. i love sleeping indoors when its too hot and theres nothing else to do or being out during the day getting tan and going place to place without needing to wear layers. and when its hot out but its nighttime? the best. i can watch the stars without freezing or just have my window open and breath in the warm air without worrying about it getting chilly.