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[cyanidefilledcandy]

You good?

Hey anon. I hope you're doing well.

In all honesty, no. Not at all. Going through an extremely rough period.

My health has unfortunately gotten bad enough that I can't work full time. This is bad enough, but my manager is being a complete ass to me about it. I had a long talk with her at the start of this, as well as my store manager and she does everything in her power to make sure my schedule is messed up (either scheduling me way too many hours or, like next week, scheduling me none at all. Which is bad enough, but my paychecks are also being garnished because of some issues with PTO when I went down to part time.

Presently, I'm two months behind on rent. I'm doing everything I can to make extra money. I DoorDash when I can, am looking for remote jobs, and even tried sex work and I'm getting nowhere.

And the looming homelessness, as well me just wondering how I'm going to live period (especially with rent going up $100 next year), my depression and anxiety is through the roof....to the point where it's almost crippling.

I honestly want to just give up. Not because I'm just so sad I can't stand it, but because it's simply impossible to live with the cards I've been dealt.

(The worst thing is that my health is as bad as it is from working myself constantly into the ground beyond my limits....and it's like I'm getting punished for having been a good worker.)

I'm still trying though, for whatever that's worth. I'm also working on finally starting a business, so....keep your fingers crossed for me.

And thanks for checking on me at all. Seriously. It's very hard to not feel alone right now, so I appreciate you. :)

[theuniquelee]

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This somehow seems fitting

[theuniquelee]

Ok, Spoofy wrapped is up, yall know the drill and for once I'll participate. Send me an ask 1-101 and I'll send the link I get in response

[cyanidefilledcandy]

Out of curiosity, if you had to pick, what would be your favorite scenes from DragonBall Z?

Oh wow! That’s a pretty bloated one. lol I’m pretty sure I’m going to miss a few, but here’s some off of the top of my head. 

*Vegeta’s atonement scene. I know, I know. It gets mentioned all of the time and I know people are tired of Vegeta right now, but it’s SUCH a great, emotional scene and such a pivotal moment for him as a character and his story. And I like that it wasn’t overly sappy and his hug was pretty barebones, but it’s very fitting of his character. One of the issues I have with DBZ is that while I LOVE redemption characters, I feel like a lot of them come way too easy. In reality, it can be very difficult to break a worldview you’ve had since you were young, especially if it’s literally how you were raised. And you could tell that even though it was small, it meant the world to Trunks who he’d kept at an emotional distance until then. I could go on forever about this scene and the ones after (him accepting that he’s going to Hell, his inner speech about how he was doing it for those he loved (Yes. Even you, Kakkarot.), his smile, as well as Piccolo remembering him afterwards), but I don’t want to bore you (if I haven’t already. :P)

*Speaking of Majin Buu, his scenes with Mr. Satan were so great and so unexpected. We’re used to the beaten bad guy learning the error of their ways after being defeated by Goku, but this was the first time that we actually see a villain actually having a very childlike frame of mind in that they were just doing what they were told. Not to mention that it was Mr. Satan of all people who did....and simply by asking. And the subsequent scene where we get a friendly reminder of the darkness of humankind, and for the first time in the series see a no-nonsense side of Mr. Satan who is rightfully pissed off. We also see a bit of his true strength firsthand where he not only makes quick work of the fiends, but kicks a freakin bazooka several feet away. It’s just great all around.

*And to piggyback off of that scene, when the gunman returns and shoots Mr. Satan, basically killing him were it not for Buu, but him being healed isn’t enough to repair the damage that was done. In the English dub in particular, I remember just how well the voice actor for Buu did in portraying his anguish and I really, really felt that scene.

*Another good really emotional scene that was done phenomenally was Gohan’s death in Trunks’ timeline and Trunks discovering his body. The setting, the tone, everything about that scene was done so well. And even though it deviated from the manga, I think having that actually be the trigger for his Super Saiyan transformation made it that much more impactful.

*Cell’s introduction is another very good, and I feel, underrated scene. Probably one of the best villain intros in the entirety of Dragon Ball, I feel, if not THE. It played out so much like a horror movie and was done extremely well. The entire mystery surrounding this new creature that was attacking cities and leaving them completely empty and desolate with not even bodies to be found. That entire buildup as well as when Piccolo is looking for him in the empty city, searching around corners and we kind of see him lurking. It has very real tension to it and, like I said, is very reminiscent of a very well done horror movie and I love it so much! 

*Goku meeting Goten for the first time was such a cute moment. It was so simple, yet heartwarming.-Same with the scenes at the end of Z where Goku is hanging out with Pan and we see how bonded they are. 

*Also, I LOVE filler. Not the “let’s spend 20 minutes of this episode recapping what happened last episode” type, but the legit filler where we kind of see what the characters are life in real life outside of battle, especially how they interact on interpersonal levels. IDK....I always love those little slice of life moments thrown in. 

*This is technically still DBZ, but the Battle of Gods movie where Dende is explaining how all of the Saiyans there had good hearts, including Vegeta. And so everyone just like....gives him a standing ovation for not being an asshole anymore. It’s so ridiculous and stupid that it’s amazing! xD Also, Gohan’s reaction to finding out Videl is pregnant, specifically in the movie, is so absolutely adorable and heartwarming! And how everyone stops to clap for them and offer their congratulations. 

Ah.....I know I’m missing a LOT, but I can’t remember everything clearly (especially not the Saiyan and Namek sagas, which I haven’t seen in FOREVER). Maybe I’ll add more as I remember. Though.....maybe it’s for the best considering what a windbag I am... (^^’) Sorry about that, but greatly appreciate the questions! 

Love you much! <3

[bleachblondemenace]

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Apres Une Reve, Gabriel Fauré and Nicole Benedetti

[cyanidefilledcandy]

Hey, I know this is a bit random to ask of you, but have you heard of the show BoJack Horseman, on Netflix? I've watched some episodes, and it's actually a really good show! It looks like some Family Guy knock-off at first, but it actually focuses on topics like depression, substance abuse, loneliness, among other things. If you haven't seen it yet, give it a shot! You might like it!

Hey hey! 

So, so very sorry it’s taken me so long to get to this, last month was insanely busy for me. 

I’m aware of Bojack Horseman. Pretty much everyone I know RAVES about it!

However....I don’t know. I just could NOT for the life of me get into it. :/I’m not sure why. I gave it a fair shot, I think. (And by “fair shot”, I mean I forced myself to watch it at least five times, twice all the way through to the second or third season.) 

I don’t know. I just found the show not that interesting and the characters intolerable to the point where I was like “why should I care about what happens to any of these people?” I just got “typical Hollywood douches” from them.

Though, I have been thinking of giving the show like a 6th try. :/ Maybe I just wasn’t in the right mindset at the time. When my depression’s at it’s worst, it’s EXTREMELY hard for me to get into a new show or even something I love sometimes unless it’s just something that hooks me completely. (It’s why I didn’t watch much of Season 4-BPS of Ed Edd n Eddy back when it first aired since I was just a casual fan at the time.) 

So, who knows if and when I try again?

[cyanidefilledcandy]

What do you think Ed was so mad about aside from the pebble in Little Ed Blue?

I think it was one of those things where if you're already agitated, every other little thing will set you off as well.

While Ed will typically go along with whatever anyone says about him, at the end of the day, no one wants to be made fun of or looked down on (such as Double Dee's problem with Ed's hygiene).