Do you have a headcanon for a narumika romantic confession? 👀
ohhh enabler……….
i spoke abt it a bit in this post. i think arashi would not be the one confessing just bc she gets in her own head so much (and now she has the added Trauma of the akiomi confession 😭😭) but mikachan is also so down on himself. well they both are in different ways i can see naru being like ‘i will confess when im the person i want to be’ if she even DID realise her feelings (her ass thinks she’s ever going to be happy w herself…) and yea mikas like. crazy
so i dont think itd be intentional …! in a few wips i have (dont even start brah i havent written for like a month) its an accidental thing. i also think that their friendship begins to blur the lines between platonic and romantic rlly easily, i know a lot of ppl r fans of the fwb angle that leads to actual realisation LOL i like it too !!
it acktually happening i think would take years. that or theyre forced into a situation where its all they can both think about and Someone finally cracks.
w the way mika loves to be so niceys to her and plan surprises for her (ie bouquet of desire, blackjack) if anyone were to preplan a confession itd be him. and he wld spend months getting other opinions and dragging his feet about it bc he doesnt wanna ruin anything & ‘knows’ she isnt gonna return his feelings. its more a ‘i think you should know this’ than a ‘lets date!’ confession.
and ofc it would break naru bc how could someone love her like that when she isnt the perfect self she always envisions… she would absolutely reject him (maybe tearfully or rudely) and then panic about it to everyone in knights 😭 cue izumi and ritsu giving each other knowing & tired glances bc even IZUMI had to hear about how much mika wanted it to be perfect and have both had to deal with arashi gushing about him for fuckin years (leo is much nicer about it while tsukasa is jst a loser with the topic sorry 🍎 love you)
as for aftermath theyd be missing each other way too much for the awkwardness to last long. like thats their best friend !!! & i think arashi wld try to pretend it didnt happen (which is hurtful to mika bc well. yeha) but eventually she has her Realisashun. and is like oh my god. oh my god im a romcom lead. oh im stupid. & finally everyone around them gets to rest until they become the gooeist sappiest PDA couple to ever exist
im not 100% happy w it but i did write a fic where naru bursts out w a confession.. & the random conf is how i think it wld most likely happen. like in blackjack where naru busts out the ‘stupid cute mika i love you’ and then runs off 😭 their asses r messy and dumb and im biting them niceys
Hello, I have a character with (I think) P-DID; the host only fronts or co-fronts for most of his life and is undiagnosed/unaware, but after a particularly traumatic event another alter takes full control for a few months straight, and original host 'wakes up' after these months with complete amnesia of everything the other alters did. He discovers he's in a new city, new job, new partner.
What is likely to be going through his head on day 1 of this? Do you have experience with any one facet of this situation (having a few months you just experienced blanked out; having an alter make extreme life decisions without others' input; the first time you 'realized something was wrong')? And is this plot point dramatic yet realistic, or teetering into badly absurd? I think it should be OK, but I'm not sure. Thankyou in advance!
VERY GOOD QUESTIONS ANON HI
I think this is very realistic so don't even worry about that part. granted a few months is a LONG time, but I could reasonably see this happening to somebody and I think it works !! dramatic but realistic is a good way to put it
I don't specifically have P-DID, so for the specifics on having others not usually taking front, but suddenly doing so in a time of high stress, you WOULD have to consult someone WITH it and I really really recommend you do. just to put that out there! using the hypothetical below and my own experience as Reference, but it will look a little different in P-DID
imagine, like ... you're in high school, or any equivalent, one minute. you're stressed, you're overwhelmed, you're tired. so much is going on in your life that you feel like you can't handle all at once and you don't know what to do about any of it -- and then suddenly you're in a different room. you realize that you're in a different house. you're older now, you look a little different, you've since graduated. you look through your contacts, you made new friends, you blocked some old ones. you may (or may not) be referred to with a different name.
you do not have the context for any of this. it's like you're walled off from this vague period in your life, the memory is inaccessible. some or most of the details from before may also be obscured. you don't know why. this is new. this, as far as you're aware, has not ever happened to you before.
how would you feel in this situation? afraid? confused? tired or dazed? frustrated? do you dig for anything you can find to contextualize what's happening to you right now? do you go along with your new life and act like it's all normal, settling for feeling lost and not letting that on? do you feel stuck? would you feel comfortable getting help, do you assume it's a medical emergency, are you more inclined to keep it to yourself? no wrong answers! use that and go from there!
(had MUCH more elaboration to do on how I think he might feel right away as he starts "coming back", judging from that experience of losing where you are or that first big realization of something being up. I have a TL/DR at the bottom though don't worry)
as far as I know, I've never lost straight months at a time, but I do have a lot of experience in blackouts. ending up in completely new places and not knowing why. the most severe I'd say has happened to me was being in the house one moment and then a street I'd never been on (I was also by MYSELF) the next. literally just walking down the road. thankfully I was close to the street signs and realized I wasn't far, so I was able to get back safe, but I still don't know why that happened, and it could've ended a lot more dangerously if I was newer to the area or if there were incoming traffic
because of the familiarity of blackouts, I'm able to keep relatively calm when they happen. I've learned how to look around and check things I may have written down to figure out when and where I am, and why, as discreetly as I can. I look confused most of the time but I don't like telling people why if I don't have to, so figuring it out by myself is optimal
BUT. that mostly works for short-term time loss (less than months), OR when an alter is USED to these things happening and recognizes when blackouts are going on. this very likely would NOT apply here, in a P-DID system wherein that sort of thing was rare. this is new, from how you're describing it -- and if it's new, the host won't be prepared. he will likely be scrambling, might even try to go BACK to where he used to live before only to fail, because they don't live there anymore but that's all he knows
he might apply the same things I do to figure out what's going on (listen to people he's around if he's with anybody, scan the environment for anything familiar, look through phone or belongings for pointers), but he might be more frazzled in doing so. he may also not think to at all, if he's too panicked
(it's also going to depend on WHEN the host reappears from dormancy. is it a safe environment or is he somewhere like the Middle Of The Street? because that WILL inform the urgency and how calm he's going to be)
on the topic of adjusting to their new life: that can take a super long time! the first day your host is processing all of these changes will not be nearly long enough for it to fully sink in unless he is the most nonchalant person on earth
he's probably going to be reeling at first, a lot, even over little things. might be freaking out, since a huge chunk of time, with life-altering changes attached, is just gone. and he has presumably no access to it. there may be evidence of all these things in his life but the memory just is not there, like you're in someone else's shoes even though they're YOUR shoes
if he's in a new place he may struggle more to get around for that first day and after, like you would if you'd just moved in. at his new job he may suddenly drop in performance if it's something he's not experienced in because he Doesn't Know How to complete these tasks or what he's doing here. things that are second nature to another alter might be really new for him, and vice versa! and he'd likely be confused if expected to be able to do something he's never been known for!
sudden loss and regaining of knowledge and skills I should've realistically had access to is actually what made me first accept what was going on, so I CAN relate very much to that first "oh this is really not normal" feeling. I first realized my lifelong experience was "off" and didn't match others in high school (severe and contextual memory loss, C-PTSD symptoms with no remembered cause, never feeling stable in who I was even when I was younger ...). but it took until I was 19 to finally confront it, and only out of necessity (we were going to flunk out of college if I didn't find a healthy way to deal with it)
BEFORE this I was COMPLETELY not acknowledging ANYTHING. I'm talking full on covering my ears walking away going "lalalalala". it STILL took months to adjust, sometimes I still have to. I doubt that part goes away. SO your character might be dealing with all of THOSE things too! both the denial, and alarm over something unfamiliar and clearly SERIOUS going on
thoughts like "this has never happened to me before" or "is this an emergency, should I be concerned, what's happening to me??" -- and a high chance of panic. because something clearly impactful is happening to you and you can't figure out what. it's very likely he'd also go into complete denial of a dissociative disorder (searching for any explanation OTHER than P-DID, because complex dissociative disorders love hiding from the people that have them), but not guaranteed. I see this happen a lot but it won't always
depending on how much he trusts his new partner or is willing to get to know them, he might open up to them. he might reach out to someone else he trusts, or immediately seek out medical help, or keep it to himself for a long time. reactions can REALLY vary, nothing seems unreasonable here!
and because this traumatic period had went on for MONTHS, he's going to be uncovering all those new things for a WHILE. for SURE will not have it all figured out that first day. it really does feel like settling back into yourself? if that makes sense?
the host might struggle with that, too. like he's "himself" again, after who knows how long -- but "he" is now foreign to what he used to understand himself to be. this is not my career, this is not how I'd set up my room, I don't like these things, I don't wear these types of clothes, I Would Not Fucking Say That. he may feel like he's "pretending" to be himself, and he may be reluctant to share that feeling with others
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TL/DR in case you only want THIS part: your host is for sure going to be feeling a LOT of confusion in those first moments of readjusting. and maybe panic over months of his life being wiped from his memory, and now being in a completely different place (he might not even know he's LOST the memories until he realizes where and when he is). a lot of "where the fuck am I"s will be happening in my experience
people you don't know, places you've never seen, work you don't do and everyone expects you to understand -- it's scary! it can be really scary! and it's alright to write him scared!!
there are MANY many angles you could approach this from, though, and a lot are centered around the tendencies of the host and when and where the host comes back to front. so you don't HAVE to, either
generally, you'd likely be seeing a lot of "what happened?" questions, and "what's going on now?" and "why can't I remember?" -- "who/what have I become? why don't I understand it?" -- "why doesn't anything feel right?" and your host may or may not be scared to death about it at first. he also might not be! could just be shocked instead! reactions in people vary and the same applies to individual alters. after a long dormancy period, ruminating on What The Hell That Was is also a common experience in people that don't know about their dissociation yet
(THIS IS LOOKING GOOD SO FAR ANON DO NOT WORRY !! nothing about this premise read as absurd to me at all! you got this!)
hiiii fellow bored at work warrior. first of all sorry for unfollowing and refollowing you instead of sending you an ask, i'm very good at pressing buttons. secondly tell me five fiction tropes that make you crazy no matter what
HI OOMF omg it’s no worries at all i have definitely done that before too 😭😭 and this is suuuuuch a good question THANK YOU!!! tbh i don’t have a huge familiarity with all the different ~official~ names of certain tropes and my desire to answer this question thoroughly has me deep diving on tv tropes RIGHT NOW so please await my longer answer to this. SOON
Never again, my parents used to make it for me and my brother and every time I wanted to throw up. It felt like one of those Johnny Test Episodes for anyone who happened to end up witnessing that show.
I tried to eat it with ketchup (because thats what my parents surved it with) but it never would settle well in my stomach for some reason even if all the ingredients are things I like. At one point I just straight up told them that if they make meatloaf I'm making my own dinner.
