feel like I'm supposed to kill myself- It's odd because I don't want to, but I know for sure that everyone around me would be happier if I did, wouldn't miss me- and still I don't truly WANT to, I don't want to die I'm too scared I feel like I'm not depressed Enough. I don't cut, I don't completely break down, so what if this emptiness and horrible sadness I feel all the time is just how I feel? What if I'm just faking for attention? maybe I'm just a sad person and that's how I'm meant to be
You don't need to justify your sadness. I stopped cutting but even after being clean for months i tried to kill myself - they don't always correlate.
Feeling empty is depression because, as quadeca said, "When the brain can’t articulate feelings in words they just come out in tears". sometimes you can't process all the hurt and so you just feel empty.
You are your own person don't think about if you may be faking it etc because if you were you'd know it.